Destino

Do you still love me? I hear him ask me. I can still feel how his question made me gasp, made me just stare without blinking, made me tremble with nerves and excitement and anger... why anger? I can feel my furrowed brow and my lips tighten. Time stops. My breathe stops. My heart beats crazy, so crazy. I can see his face and hear his deep voice that over so many years had said my name and shared his truths. But now nothing, no sound, no voice, just space.

I try to stop my whole body from shaking but it just won't. Until... my hand grasps the heart shaped locket he had given me that night when he told me he loved another but his heart will always belong to me.

The next thing that happened I said out loud but I knew it wasn't true..

no. I don't.

It was my turn in the room.

The Memory Room.

The Memory Room, built by the folks at Destino reads your vibration as soon as you walk in and takes you back to a time where you have always wanted to know What would happen if?

If I went a different way? If I didn't get that job? If I turned left not right. You get the idea.

And mine you might be thinking What if I had said Yes, I Do love you?

But no that's not it.... you see Oh look at me wanting to give it all away up front... you'll have to wait I'm afraid.

It's 2033 the world has changed for the better ' they' keep telling us but really it just blew up. Not literally. The buildings still stand and the rivers still flow and we all still walk around but in the most apocalyptic sensational way we blew up the future. Thinking about the future, gone. Ruminating on the future, gone. Planning for the future, gone. Dreaming of the future, gone and the real kicker indulging in the most desirable of all futures...an alternative outcome.

You see the Live in the Moment movement happened.

The folk at LITM say they could see where the world was heading in the way of greed, over consumption, jealousy, envy, dreaming, possessions and the ultimate indulgence... regret.

Their war cry if you like is 'Live in the moment that's all we really have that's all we'll ever need'

We attend classes and workshops on yoga and breath work and of course mindfulness to teach us how to stay present and only and purely available for the actual moment that we are in.

The reason for The Memory Room is to expose us to how bad and painful life used to be when we didn't live in the ever present moment. When we indulged in the future. Something else we could of said, written or ultimately felt.

So, as I was saying it was my turn in the room. I had asked a question to one of the Yogis and they felt in that moment that I was not only regressing to old ways of thinking but I was flirting with the idea of reflection hence not in the moment.

Not one to conform naturally I was there quite a bit. It was meant to torture me I think but for me it was a relief from the pressure of being so happy living in the now.

The room reads your vibration and takes you back to a time where your heart was racing at it's peak. The room recognizes it as a time when adrenaline was racing and one's mind was abundant in choice. They interpret this as not living in the moment. And what possible good could come from that?

For me that was him.

Only he could do that. Get my heart racing that is. That said there is also a time when I was in The Memory Room and it took me back to when I was on the worlds biggest rollercoaster. Same same if you ask me.

Anyway, anyway... back to him.

In order to 'heal' from our pain caused by our crossroads situations we are encouraged to re live it so we can then re mind ourselves of the torment I guess to then 'work' through this in our next breath work workshop and yet again enjoy the LIMT way of living..

Leaving the room I am then ushered into the counselling circle. This is where we are placed in the center of the room to then accept where we are placed and are essentially counselled by the Grand Masters of LITM.

Some people have for lack of a better word been tricked into talking about what happened in the room even tho the Grand Masters can see everything that we can see and hear everything that we can hear in the room.

If we give in to temptation and re tell our experience we are then taken in to another room, dis robed and put in a gold robe so all will know that we are lacking in mindfulness.

I have never worn the gold robe not because I was not lacking in mindfulness but because I knew if I ever spoke of it again it would taint that moment and ultimately diminish it's value, to me.

Destino, destiny, is a noun understood by some to control our life through a series of events. Events and happenings that re route us or corral us in a different direction. Thing is when something bad happens we call it bad luck, when something good happens like we fall in love or we win the lottery we call it destiny.

Destino and the Live in the Moment collaboration know that we make these links and therefore create the chain.

So, I'm back in the room.

This time because I ran late and literally ran in to the room for meditation.

I walk in the room. Stand on the point indicated on the floor and the reel begins....

The End