Crash

“The only perk of this mission is that I get to fly the plane.

No hassle. Walk out to the tarmac, perform safety checks, climb in. I can be in the air inside an hour. I could be alone ten thousand feet above the widespread ocean.

Unfortunately for me, this isn’t a solo mission.

I’m waiting at Heathrow, killing time in a fancy private lounge, the kind with white tablecloths and top-shelf liquor included in the membership. A harpist plays in the back of the dining room. This is where I’m waiting for June Porter, the wildlife photographer.

That’s all the information I have about the passenger.

Officially, I’m nothing more than an escort. Someone who can fly the plane and interface with the researchers working in Mauritania. I’ve never met them, but I’ve worked with their sister organization when researching Zostera noltii, a fascinating species of seagrass that grows underwater.

My stated purpose is to make sure the inexperienced new photographer hired by the Biology Department at the university finds her way around. The grant that pays her salary is part of a bid to” “bring awareness to the way our research programs protect rare species around the globe.

That’s what it says on the flight manifest.

Unofficially. I have a very different purpose on this trip.

It’s nothing that June Porter needs to know about, though. Who is she? I don’t know, and I don’t particularly care. She’s cargo on this mission. Living, breathing cargo. Probably someone bookish, used to taking photos in lecture halls and laboratories. She probably wears what most of my colleagues wear—tweed and herringbone. It’s a uniform, really. Professors are just as shallow as anyone else. We have an academic reputation to uphold, including our matching wardrobes. I don’t mind it.

Though in my case it’s less of a uniform and more of a disguise.

Right now I am not wearing pleated pants or a wool jacket. I’m wearing ripstop pants that will stand up to the flight, landing, and first few days in Africa. And a black T-shirt that will be comfortable for the flight.

The lounge is pleasantly cool. It won’t be like this at our destination. The facility has air-conditioning and plumbing, which makes it nicer than some places I’ve visited in my[…]”“a parade of people following her, porters from the airport who I know are not supposed to be hauling around this woman’s luggage. There’s a metric fuck ton of it. Two full-size suitcases. A duffel bag. A smaller duffel bag.

She wears a camera case strapped over her shoulder that looks about half as big as she is.

“Mr. Morelli?” Her face lights up with genuine delight that feels almost embarrassing. Almost everything about her expression says I’m thrilled to see you, which is a mistake. June Porter isn’t from New York City, clearly. If she was, she’d know better than to be excited when she saw someone who looked like me standing in an airport lounge.

Then again, she’s not even from London, given her accent.

“That’s me,” I answer. How the fuck are we supposed to fly when we’re weighted down with all her things? The research facility is utilitarian, understaffed, and overworked. I’m not going to carry this shit for her.

The porters arrange her luggage at her feet.

“Thank you,” she murmurs, pressing a generous tip into their hands. She looks them in the eye as she says it. It’s sweet. Too sweet. I[…]”“Well.” June wrinkles her nose. Even that’s cute. “I’m not going to wear the same dress every day.”

I look hard at her, letting my eyes slip over the sundress. “Have you ever heard of jeans and T-shirts?”

She looks back just as hard. Her blue eyes turn steely.

“Listen.” June doesn’t put her hands on her hips, but that’s her tone. Instead, she grips the strap of her camera bag. The tough, indestructible act isn’t working. “We’re going to have to work together. So let’s be kind and professional.”

Just like that, I’m chastened. Chastened by this woman in a lace sundress. This woman in a lace sundress who’s going to a remote research facility dressed like this. Who’s going to get in a plane for a ten-hour flight with me dressed like this.

She looks like a person I’d enjoy taking into a dark corner and fucking with that white sundress pushed up to her hips. I’d fuck her bareback and leave her dripping my cum down the inside of her leg. No one who looked at her would know. All they’d see is an adorable, cheerful woman. I want her to blush and stammer[…]”“She tilts her head. “Don’t you study plants?”

“Rhizomes.” I’m surprised to find my teeth gritted. Even more surprised to find that every inch of me is already responding to her. I’m annoyed, damn it. Nothing else.

I shouldn’t be turned on by Pollyanna with a camera.

“Rhizomes,” she says with irrepressible good cheer. “Well, maybe you’ll find some rhizomes to look at while we’re there. I could take photos of them for you.”

Unfathomable that she’s already under my skin. Unfathomable that she’s already exasperating and I have to fly her across the ocean. Her optimism shouldn’t bother me, but it does.

It reminds me that I’m jaded.

For three weeks I’ll have to watch her traipse around taking photos of wildlife. Look at her in that white sundress and the variety of other dresses she’s packed. I don’t believe that anything in these bags is appropriate for the job. It won’t protect her from the sun or insects. Definitely not animals.

That’s it. That’s what bothers me about her. She has no protection.

Not her body, not her emotions. She’s wide open to the world. Vulnerable. Exposed in a way that I knew not to be, even[…]”“Okay.” June pats her purse. “I need to find a drink of water first.”

“There’s water on the plane.”

“I need to take my Xanax.”

Oh, for Christ’s sake. “Take it later. We need to get into the air.”

June laughs, and it’s like sunshine reaching into the ground. I want to hear her do it again. Maybe several times. A hundred times, even while it annoys the living hell out of me. “I know, I know. Let’s just not talk about it. I can’t think about flying until I have something to take the edge off.”

Not… talk about it? It’s a basic fact of the day. I will be piloting the plane along the Pacific Ocean for the next ten hours. And she’s afraid of flying? Hell. I must have pissed off someone at Oxford to get this assignment. Of course it works out for me in one key way. A professor of biology always has reasons to travel. No one asks questions or cares overmuch about it.

“Is it a heights thing?” I ask.

She’s so sunny and light, and even her attempts at toughness are obnoxiously charming. June waves a hand as if to brush[…]”