"…because it's bothering me"

On my way to my date with Zahiry, I stop at the bank. I head to the ATM for some cash as well. Coming out of the bank, the cold snow air hits my face reminding me I left my coat in the car. I carefully walk swiftly for warmth and arrive at the café in 10 minutes. 'Hey Iry, I'm so sorry, so sorry', I said as I walked towards him seated at a table. 'It's okay, I'm just glad you're here now', he said. He said, 'You look great Cel, hope the drive wasn't too bad. It's getting crazy out there'. 'Aw, thank you! You look good too, I love this look. The drive was not as bad as it just got but at least I'm here', I said. We order some sandwiches and hot coffee for two. He asks, 'How's your day going?' I said, 'It's going well actually. Did lesser work today, so that's always a plus but I also went shopping for new sweaters and finally, I went to the bank. How's your's?' 

'I had a hectic day at work because of the performance reports they just posted and the downsizing too, they're expecting so much more now. I also went to return those home slippers as well' 

'Oh, you did? Nooo, they were my favourite on you hahaha' 

'Well, hahaha it's gone finally. Thankfully I kept the receipt' 

'They weren't that bad, come on.' 

'They were but it's the eyes that disturbed me but whatever. Wait, you said you went to the bank? 

'Yes, I did. I went to..'

The waiter brings our subs and cappuccinos to the table. We decide to eat before our discussion after my indication of some seriousness. 

After eating, I say, 'I went to the bank to get a cheque for a new place I'm interested in'. Curiously, he asks what the capacity of my interest is. I let him know that I considered moving and finalized it yesterday. He expresses his disappointment as he had no idea of the consideration in the first place. I tell him that I mentioned it when we drove to the store three weeks ago and he said, 'Yes you mentioned it, in passing, as we talked about the state of the streets. I didn't know you meant it much less take action on it.' I tell him I didn't really know how serious I was either until I talked to Wilbur about it. His visible confusion leads me to say, 'Wilbur can talk. But don't let anyone know. After our last breakup, he worried about me and out of nowhere talked.' He says, 'So let me get this straight, your talking cat and essentially roommate, advised you to move from your condo in Minnesota to..?' 'Oh, we're planning on moving to an apartment in Michigan', I said. He is disappointed and said 'Wow, Celine this really hurts you know.' I try to find ways to say we don't have to break up with the distance and can figure out our plans but he stops me saying, 'This is not the first or second time you've done this Celine'. Perplexed I say, 'I have not moved since I met you, I don't know what you're talking about Iry'. 'Because it's bothering me and I'm not talking about relocation. That hurts too but I feel like you don't value me as a person in your life. I am your boyfriend in a rather serious relationship and you consistently think of me last, it's hurtful and unfair. Why am I finding out about this serious move when you've got the cheque in your hand?' 'I-I-I'm sorry but I told you about Wilbur talking the only other person that knows is Margaret and she just popped up at mine when she found out', I said.

He says he doesn't care about that because it's a continuous thing that he continuously brings up but to a greater extent at the moment. I apologize and say we've had a lot going on in the relationship but we're still working on fixing things as well. He expresses his frustration with being a partner but being told of the final decision instead of being asked for input on the situation. I apologized repeatedly but he stops me saying, 'You know, I found out about your gambling activities 2 years ago. I know that's what you actually do at the strip mall you claim you shop at. I found out one day I followed you in to see what you're buying and getting it for Valentine's day but with the shockingly low security, I was able to follow you to a covered corner in the hallway where the room door was and left afterwards. I saw enough but I didn't want to bring it up because you didn't seem like you had an addiction and I didn't want to judge you. Although, when you said you went shopping earlier I remembered and I'm only telling you did now to let you know I think of your feelings. I may have hurt them in the past but I do think of you. When I get higher on your list of important people let me know, otherwise, have a great time in Michigan Cel'.