You

I grew up with a strict father. I struggled to communicate with him openly. I used to be very self-conscious and afraid of his judgemental eyes. Every girl dies for her father's acceptance and approval. But I always felt far from that.

When I was a young sweet child, I used to look up to him. My parents were like God-figures to me! Then I grew up to be a confused teenager. I had a lot of insecurities, yet I desperately wanted to fit in! I became very rebellious and eager to find my identity.

I wanted to become an independent woman! Although society's feminist movement crept upon me. It made me 'hate' men! I wanted to keep a far distance from all of them. I often imagined what a phenomenon and beautiful world it would be if men didn't exist at all. How could we get revenge for how much damage they created on this planet? Obviously, I had a lot of hate growing inside me!

So much false hate grew within me! So much damage I created for myself, and I missed out on beautiful memories I could create with my father. Or any man! I grew into an attractive young woman. Oh boy, how much I loved the dating games. I attracted them like a magnet. Guys were like toys for a child. So much pleasurable anticipation, but then I would get very bored, very fast!

And then one day, you came along! We met eye-to-eye, standing patiently so close to me. I haven't yet stared into someone's eyes for so long. It was like a remembrance of what it could be like to feel so much love for another man. It felt like real love, so naturally blossomed between us.

Our relationship grew and developed so fast with many layers of deconditioning, unlearning, and relearning. I met you when I was 25. Boy, I wish I met you when I was younger, so my egoistic rebel wouldn't have so much power over me! My mind was full of unanswered questions! I didn't know who to turn into, as I was still so afraid of being judged.

I approached you full of questions, and it's like you knew me! All of me! The parts of me that I didn't even know yet about myself. I hated you for being a man. But I really loved your intensions so pure and honest. I used to push you away until you begged me to come back. Our relationship was like watching a game of Ping Pong! Back and forward we bounced. I pulled and pushed you along, and all you wanted to do was to create a little sanctuary home with me.

Our love was like a magnet of lava about to explode and burst into flames as soon as I pushed my shadow-side ego to the back seat. I knew our souls were deeply connected. I knew that you were here for the long term!

I couldn't resist the learning experiences that were waiting upon us, to break down the walls, and work through the deep layers of icebergs that were blocking my subconscious from growing and evolving as a human being.

How could I resist your love?

And now, after all these crazy years have passed, I watch you becoming the Father of our precious little girl! How lucky is she to have you? And now after all these lessons, I truly understand what a Father-daughter relationship is supposed to be like! It just depends on our perception. Fathers are allowed to be strict with their daughters and sons. They see the world from an eagle's eye-view; as above, so below! Their role is to protect their family. Guide them, and teach them right from wrong. Without strong parent roles and family structure, society doesn't exist. And without a smooth-running society, our world with human existence wouldn't exist.

You have become the savior of my world! I appreciate you, and love you for being you and allowing me to become the best version of myself!

Yours truly,

Your Wife