Winters Of The Mind

The battle seems never ending;

My eyes are heavy with grief and pain;

No matter the love I know he's sending;

It always calls for dark rain.

Never in my life have I been this way;

Desperate to re-kindle what once I had;

To hold him now, and talk to him everyday;

By the gods this is really bad.

How now do I move ever forward;

When all seems so damn lost;

By the gods this is so hard;

My soul is weighing the cost.

I feel torn and thrown into the fray;

My thoughts linger in the blackened deep;

And with the nightfall will eventually come the day;

Only this bond of evil emotion is what I keep.

I dare not smile nor sing;

Or lift my head from the night;

I dare not tell him what this brings

As I back away from this fight.

No one will ever know;

I walk this path alone;

I hold to the emotion that I dare not show;

For this breakdown not even I can condone!!