Virtual Hell

The real live struggle of "Virtual Schooling." Yes, I am another person speaking on how this year has been an overwhelming experience. It's like you're dealing with a child that is going through terrible twos and still have teeth trying to come in, "A Nightmare." For those of you who have experienced it you know exactly what I mean and what frustrations that brings for both the child and the parent. For those of you who haven't felt that hand full of crazy I feel mildly jealous.

Let start by talking about the chaos of doing virtual school for my children this week. We got a good fresh start Monday more, 3 out of 4 of my children were on point with what was needed for them to complete their assignments for the day. Tuesdays, by my surprise my kids were acting special(not in a good way), which hits my anxiety button. When I say that, I mean my children's whole demeanor and ability to get their work don't in a timely manner was out the window. My youngest daughter seemed like she was unaware of all the work we reviewed the prior week. My oldest son seemed like he was incapable of operating his iPad. My oldest child was giving me indigestion from all the questions she was asking(non-school related) while I was trying to help her sibling to get it together. My poor youngest child, he has his grandma in the mornings just so I wont be completely out of my mind with these school-age kids of mine. By Wednesday morning, me and the kids are over it. My son was tired of it entirely, he didn't want to hear the teacher or the YouTube videos that were education based. Thursdays, well I am praying for Friday afternoon. I can't even tell you how we made it through the day. Friday, as soon as the clock strikes the time for them to be done with school my mind will literally check out and slide into autopilot. I don't want to hear anything important until Sunday. Thank goodness for me not being with my children's fathers I get a little break every now and then just to sleep and reboot for the following week.

In the mist of me trying to get through the week with all my responsibilities I try to still maintain myself outside of my kids. So far I am not doing great but I am still trying. Dealing with the fears of COVID-19, I feel like my kids and I are being jipped from having a normal life. Or what I precede as a normal life. Before all of this Coronavirus, Pandemic shenanigans I had fantasized about me finally being at a point with my kids where 3 out 4 of them would be in school and one would be in daycare. I thought I was going to finally get an opportunity to gather who I am as a woman outside of my kids. I had my first child when I was 19 years old. So for the past 10 years I’ve put my all into making sure that they have what they need and want. I pretty much forgot about myself. However, like a pair of panties on a wide booty, Corona rolled in and changed all those plans. Like most people, my struggle everyday is trying not to lose my mind being confined to our home and dealing with trying to make sure my kids still receive a good education while doing virtual schooling. Everything else has really just been a things of we’ll have to see how things end up. Where is the fun in that?!