The Day It All Changed

Growing up I really never fit in with many other kids. I felt like I was always different and was always picked on by others. It was a rough childhood for me without anyone who understood me. At times I thought about being lonely for my whole life. It was a scary thought that haunted me often.

When I turned 19 I had my own apartment and worked full-time at Big Kmart in the layaway department. One day I found myself falling deeply for an amazing and very attentive man. His name was John and when I first met him it was like the best day of my life. We soon became very serious and even moved in together. He was such a caring and understanding person. Always making sure I had everything I wanted and needed. he was so charming and such a patient and kind man. I enjoyed just being with this man.

Soon, we were pregnant and he even proposed to me. After my daughter was born and we were doing very well with our life together it all came crashing down. I was at work and was escorted by the police to an apartment where i had to pick up my 8 moth old daughter. John was arrested and would spend the next 3 months in jail for hitting his ex.

A month into his jail term I had a little get together with my 2 sisters. We had a good time and then they left. They had this friend with them that I didn't know too well. But they all had left and went home so I thought. We had a few drinks and called it a night. About fifteen minutes after they had left I got a knock at my door.

It was the friend my sisters had with them. He stated that he got left by my sisters and needed to call for a ride. feeling sad for him I allowed him into my home and he called for a ride. He said it would be at least 30 minutes before his ride could come to get him. So I let him sit there on my couch since it was freezing outside.

I went and got us both a beer and I went into the bathroom for a minute. When I came out I drank some of my beer and the next thing I knew i was crawling on the hallway floor to the bedroom. Then I was in the tub and over the toilet. I remember next i was pushing this man off of me and screaming please NO!

Next thing I remember was I was waking up naked and someone was in my kitchen cooking. Groggily I walk out to see this man at my stove and scream get out of my home. and that's when I knew something had happened. Sure enough 9 months later I was having a baby and it wasn't my future husbands either.

John had gotten out and became very angered about the whole matter. That was the day that changed my life forever. Never again would I find love that I had with John. While I couldn't give my baby up and I would never be able to abort any child I was losing the man I loved.

John became very dark and began to beat me whenever he saw me! He was never the same and I ended up having to run for me life and never look back. I had one more child with John but it was not right. He didn't even want anything to do with me or his children. I ran away with my children who would never know their father.

About 5 months later I found out that John ended up getting 78 years in prison for murdering a 21 year old woman. She was found brutally beaten burned and dead in a field. john had tortured her for almost a week and then took her to a wooded area and burned her body while she was still alive. He then went back to his home and burned it. They found him on other charges and then charged him with murder, attempting to conceal a homicidal death and arson.

We could have had such a beautiful life together and maybe we could have been so happy. Now years later I still struggle with all of this. the moral is you never really know how someone can destroy a life so be careful. Its always a safe thing to never be alone drinking with someone you barely know even if they seem innocents. Its ok to say No and not help some. I will never be the same and many individuals were affected by this act. Its devastating and so hard to think about.

Its even hard to at times think about what if it didn't happen like that where could I be! But it still brings tears to my eyes to even think about so i try to just keep going. I must always move forward but that day was I believe the one thing that made my life so hard. It tore me and my family apart and lost our love forever now.