Pregnancy & EUPD

Hello Everyone,

I thought I would come on here and give you guys an update on what's happened in life so far.

Back in February, we found out I was pregnant with our first. It was a shock to my system, I tell you that. We started talking about it properly back in late December, early January. After looking at different donors and speaking to them, we found one.

Started the treatment, and after the first treatment round, we found out it was a success!! We both could not believe what was happening. But in a good way!!

We told close friends and family as we could not hold in our excitement. We have been together for 11 years this year, and we have been through a lot together.

We posted back in April on our Facebook accounts about the surprise, and everyone was over the moon for us. I can't believe the response we got. It was overwhelming; everyone was supporting us and sending us their congratulations. We are having a GIRL!!

Over those first few months, my emotions were heightened. This is due to pregnancy and the fact that I have EUPD ( Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder ), also sometimes known as BPD ( Borderline Personality Disorder ). Mason has been a massive support during all of this; he has supported me through all of my lows and celebrated my highs with me. My Mum has been another huge support for me during pregnancy, she has been the one person that I can go to and tell my worries to and get some reassurance when needed. I can't thank them both enough for the love and support.

My moods have been rather stable during the pregnancy, which surprised both myself and Mason. We were both anticipating my moods and lows to be all over the place; we were anticipating the worst, expecting the worst. But I have been very lucky to be very stable and happy throughout this pregnancy. Don't get me wrong, there have been some days when I have had some rough times, but having an amazing support system has helped massively. I have also spoken to my midwife, and they have referred me to a mental health support group around pregnancy and mental health. I start this next week, and I am worried about it, but willing to give it a go to be able to understand my emotions better during this pregnancy.

I am on my last Trimester now. The time has flown by. I honestly can't believe how fast it has gone. Feeling her move and hearing her heartbeat is something I will not forget. I would do it all over again. Mason has felt her move, which is something I won't forget. Seeing the look on his face and seeing his smile is something that will live with me forever! He is going to make a great Father, and I can only hope I will make a great Mother.

We have already sorted out her Nursery, just need to get the last few bits, and we are all set. I am so ready for her to arrive. I am worried but excited. I am willing to be everything to keep her safe.

I hope everyone is keeping well and is safe!

Stay Happy :)

- Lauren x