Pinterest Worthy

I will never have that Pinterest worthy house that I continue to pin in my home tab. I will never have it while I have my fearless children running around.

One child TV and Pokémon obsessed. One child baby and play dough obsessed. One child who is cluster feeding obsessed.

Coming from someone whose mental health relies on a clean house — I’m letting go.

Letting go of that wish of a Pinterest worthy home. Clean, crisp walls. No toys in sight. TV off. Decorations in place. No matter how hard you looked you wouldn’t find a crumb or a spec of dust anywhere.

Letting go is hard! Harder than you can imagine. My poor family feels the wrath of this mess everyday.

We pick up more than 5 times a day in our living room. It’s insane. But as I look around at this mess this morning, I can’t help but to feel blessed.

Here I am longing for a Pinterest worthy home but instead I have a kid worthy home. My home belonged to my children. It’s where they feel safe enough to make these messes. Where they feel safe enough to be who they should. And my selfish soul wants my home to be Pinterest worthy.

My Pinterest worthy home will come —one day. That day is just not today and not for a long while.

As I sit and continue to pin home ideas and how I want each and every piece of decor placed, my children are decorating my home how they like it.

Do we leave the mess? Not ALL of the time. Like I said we clean up our living area 5 times or more a day. But on the days that we do leave the mess, my children just pick up right where they left off. They redecorate for the day doing it their way. And I just sit back and laugh a little.

Their little minds are at work — playing, shaping, loving. And for as long as they are this little, I will let them.

There are people in the world who long for this lifestyle I have. And although I feel there is absolutely nothing wrong with me wanting my house to stay clean for 5 dang minutes, there is also nothing wrong for me letting it be this messy for 5 whole dang days.

A lot of us don’t know it yet, but we are living our lives through our children. And while we are blessed to have them, there are others who have not been as blessed…yet.

So for now, I want to forget about the Pinterest worthy home. Forget wanting clean all the time…even for 5 dang minutes. Forget the wrath that I put onto my family because it’s just not spic and span.

Instead, I will have that child worthy home. A home where my children feel the safest. A home where they know they can make those messes and in due time we will clean them up together. A home where they can get the snuggles instead of a mom who cleans over it.

I have 18 summers left with my smallest child and less with my two older. I’d rather our summers be spent in joyful times. Not times that we are cleaning everyday to give mom that worthiness she longs for.

Trust me, when you come to terms with a child worthy home for a little bit, it will make you look differently at your home. This is your child’s place. They are little humans at work during this time. Live your child worthy home life for as long as you can.

A child worthy home may just be the best happy home to them.