Making A Change

Moving somewhere out of your comfort zone isn’t always easy (I know, I’m originally from a large city and am now living in a rural town). The move was needed because the city we are originally from was no longer safe for me and my children. It’s a big change, and does take a lot of time getting use too. Being from a large city surrounded by 996,000 people to 75,000 people is quite a change. As well as not knowing anyone and being away from my family (we were always really close). It took sometime getting use to the idea of being a stay-at-home mom as I worked in my home state. I didn’t know if I could handle being away from everyone, considering my leaving during a rough time with my family. My grandmother having breast cancer (luckily she beat it and is doing amazing) and my father starting to have health problems and not being able to work, as well as my sister finding out she is pregnant with her first child. It was extremely difficult not to be there for these things when I felt they needed me the most. It was overwhelming. I was homesick. My fiancé didn’t really understand aside from my family going through things as he was never really close to his family. We moved 5 hours away from everything and everyone. Once we moved down here, I got a new phone so I could contact my family whenever I wanted too, which helped quite a bit with my feeling homesick. I was feeling relieved. I’m not really someone who has to have friends as I’m more of an introvert depending on the occasion. But being home with my kids everyday helped me the most with adjusting to everything. I felt for the longest time that being a mother wasn’t enough, that I needed to work so I could also provide for them. But realizing that I am providing just by taking care of them everyday, well, that feels like enough. It’s not a job per say, but it’s hard work. Being depressed and stressed at first because I wasn’t use to not working (I loved working) and being overwhelmed easy under stress did take a toll on me in the beginning. I finally adjusted to my life. I still miss my family everyday. But as long as I still have them in my life makes things easier as I still have them in my life regardless of the situation. So I have to say, making this move has been the best decision in my life thus far. Deciding to move wasn’t easy, but it was necessary. Deciding to take my kids away from the violent ridden city we once called home. Crime rates were rising as well as the rates of human trafficking were terrifying. I didn’t want that life for my kids. So needless to say, change isn’t always a bad thing. Especially if it’s for the bettering of whether it be your life or your kids. Go with your heart, and you’ll never be wrong.