Invited or Not to Be Invited

So this week is Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, can't say that I'm excited for it but what I am excited for is spending time with my son and my SO. It's hard to be around people that tell other people and go behind my back and say that I'm not allowed to go over anywhere because they don't like me. So in my eyes, who says they can tell their son not to invite the mother of their grandson. When I told my dad about it, he says that really is childish and that me and my son should stay home and watch Disney movies and have our own little Christmas here at home.

I'm in this mom group on Facebook, and when I get advice I find it so similar that most woman have dealt with the same thing that I go through. A lot of them say that they don't speak to them or even try anymore because they were the ones always making the effort. If people really cared it would always work out both ways, not just one person doing it. I can't say that I wouldn't say okay only this person is invited. My door has always been open to everyone that is family no matter what. So for people to say that only I am not allowed to be at any gatherings its such a hurtful thing to say behind someone back.

A lot of women go through things like this and I have to say to have a few mom friends makes me feel better about it because they can understand and advise me to what to do. I love my boys and my girls, but these days to me it's not fair for anyone to be counted out especially for the holidays. So I can't say that things are getting better but hey look at this way, for my SO work Christmas party, his dad and his girlfriend were there surprisingly. That night it went really well, they took pictures with their grandson and even he had fun. There was a bounce house in the venue for the kids, and he was so amazed by it. That night was really amazing and good, even though his dad didn't want to dance with me but I had a smaller dance partner till he fell asleep with all the loud music. Even though his dad told his son that if I was going they weren't going to go, but yet I still went because that wasn't his place or anything. The food was spicy and delicious, yet from what my SO had told me that night everything should be fine.

So going back to when I said how would people feel if they were told not to go to a certain place? If anyone was like that people would be stuck in their homes and not be going there. Would you stay away even though people don't want you around? Sometimes when I think to myself, I'm not sure if things be better if something happen to me, not that I wish that. But I know that maybe if I pray everyday that things are going to get better with time, maybe.

So I've been putting this off to publish because things somehow got better without anything being said or doing. I was very shocked to hear from my SO that his father was asking if we all were going over for Christmas, shocking I know. Things have been crazy this past year of 2020.