Diaries of Anony Elle

Feb 23

So I just talked to Twin and I swear every time I have a conversation with him I want more. Something about that man drives me wild! He is so sexy and so fun to talk to. He brings me out of my shell and it turns me on in a way only he can. Anyway, I told him about everything I went through with Jaleel and he pretty much told me what I already know… I shoulda left him where he was at. I shouldn’t have even allowed him close enough to me to convince me that was a good idea. You live and you learn! Then I asked him about Ray. I remembered while I was talking to him that he grew up across the street from Ray. This nigga said that was his uncle!!Im like oh shit. I den sat up and traded nudes with this man and den had phone sex with him back in the day… Now he might be my cousin… WTF?! #StoryOfMyLife

He said he was going to ask Ray’s brother about it since Ray passed away. So I'm just waiting to hear back from Twin. That shit would be crazy af if Ray ended up being my dad seeing as though I've fucked twin in my head so many times… Then Twin gon' say, “shit we need to gone and get that poppin' one time before we find out, cause if Ray yo daddy it will be too late” WTF wrong with these dudes? Lmao

Feb 24

So Twin just called me to tell me that Ray’s brother said that I am Ray’s daughter, and everyone in the hood knows it! He said everyone has been waiting for me to reach out and asked if he could call me. I told Twin HELL YEA.. please give him my number. So I talked to Ray’s brother for about an hour and he talks about how he and Ray met my mom and Tricia (Mom's ex best friend).

He sat up there and told me several stories about what they did in their childhood.. Im thinking like, that’s cool and all... but I really need to figure out how I can test to see if this is even my dad. So I ask him if he can get me in touch with any of Ray's other children, so that I can test with them. He gives me my possible brother’s number and I call immediately! We talk very briefly, I got straight to the poing, and he’s excited to find out if I am his sister and he is more than willing to do the test with me. COOL!

Imma still hit Lionell up just in case, so that way I don’t have to wait any longer for answers then I have to just in case Ray is not my father. I can get both results back around the same time. So imma inbox him later.

Feb 25

I inboxed Lionell and told him i’ll be headed down south in a couple weeks so i’d like to stop in Chicago so we can get a DNA test done. He was excited to hear from me and told me we don’t have to wait that long 'cause he can just drive to the D this Friday. He just wants me to find a place and book it; So I did! Now let's se what happens.

March 1st

Im so mufkn nervous… Today is the day I’m supposed to take the first test. I havent talked to Ray’s son since the other day, but Ill be taking this DNA test with Lionell today. Let me go roll up… Ill be back later to tell you how it went...

8:14 pm

WOW! Although I dont know if Lionell is my father or not, I felt super weird meeting him in person. He is very tall and very light skinned, but I can see a resemblance. I can't say I felt a connection, i'll just say that I wouldn’t be surprised if he was my father. He hugged me and I don't remember feeling anything, not even the hug. It was weird but I went completely numb before he hugged me. I think that was a defense mechanism, but damn, that was weird for me. I'm anxious as all hell, but in less then a week I would be at least 1 step closer to finding my dad. My life is crazy but I swear I love it!