BE WHO YOU'RE MEANT TO BE

"Finding who you are meant to be isn't easy but it's not hard either, A wise woman once told me don't let them break you don't let them see you cry show them you are tough and brave inside."

I wish it was that easy.

But it's not ... or is it?

I know i'm different from most people, but that's who i am and I'm proud to be the woman i grew up to be.

Life was complicated at first but then it got really easy, with my family and friends beside me i know that i was going to be okay.

Sometimes you hear those inner voices inside your head telling you to do bad things and you do it, you have to fight those inner thoughts and do something good not bad.

Have you ever heard the saying "Judge not let ye be Judged", I replay that message over and over again in my head, It also gives me hope telling me to stay on the right path.

I know who i am and what i was meant to be.

I won't let anyone tell me otherwise, I have the strength and love of my family, my friends, my boyfriend, and all the church members that i know.

They are my guiding light, They will lead me out of the darkness and into the light as long as i hold onto that love nothing and i mean nothing will ever tear me down.

How do i know this ... I don't but i have faith of who i am and who i will be one day.

Hope is all i have and no one will take that from me.

I had hope until one faithful day.

Quite the inspirational speech huh.

My parent's taught me that as i was growing up, I play it over and over again in my head it was a meaning and i had to figure out what it meant.

"Hmmm."

"Hope is all i have and no one can take it from me."

What does that mean?

I still haven't got a clue.

Maybe

"Hmm"

"GASP"

I think i know what it meant, I ran fast to the one place where those words meant and i think i know where i've seen those words before.

"Panting"

I ... I made it.

And there they were the words i've been repeating over and over again in my head it was in one place that i hated so much, it brought me so much pain that i told myself i wouldn't come here ever again.

My dad's grave.

Yes he died two years ago, he was very sick he had stage three cancer and before he died he was telling me how much he loved me and my mom and he will always be with us.

How can i be so crazy to forget the words of an amazing husband and father once said to me ever since i was a little girl, i knelt down and touched the words he said to me and i would never forget.

I started to cry remembering all the good times we had with him and how i will never forget the love he left in our hearts.

"I love you dad, Thank you for everything and i hope to see you again one day soon," I said those words out loud to his grave and i start to lay down next to his grave just like i did when i was little.

I closed my eyes and fell asleep as the sun start to set on this day, During my sleep i felt a peck on my cheek and heard a familiar voice, I awoke and saw my dad standing there with a smile.

And he said," My beautiful daughter i know how much it hurts now but just remember what i told you hope is all of you have and no one can take from you".

As he said those words for a final time he approached me and placed a kiss on my forehead and faded away saying, I will always be with you and your mother."

I looked up into the sky with a smile on my face and tears in my eyes knowing the pain i felt for over two years have finally faded away.

Thank you dad, I love you.

I know who i am and who i was meant to be, because of you and i will never forget that.

I stood up and walked away from the one place that didn't bring anymore pain but gave me hope, hope that i will never forget because of my father's words.

Be who you're meant to be.