36 years of Kelly

Kelly there a was a time we didn't even speak but let's recount the timeline throughout my eyes.

When I came in this world in 1984, I know I was the baby and it had been you and Scott for 9 years before I had arrived. Kelly I ask with love but did you even like me when we were kids?

I do remember your best friend Dana she was so sweet but I was soooooooo mean to her. But when I finally grew up I really did regret that.

When I was a baby actually 2 years old I was so smart already that I actually crawled out of my bed while mom was sleeping and when you went on your regular runs I decided to go see grandma all by myself, I had a photographic memory and thought I had memorized the route.

By the grace of god as and all of his angels I actually made it to grandma's house and knocked on the door! She wasn't home, so I turned around to walk home I got scared by a tall person ran the wrong direction and all I remember is suddenly my grandmother and her friend swopped in put me in a car and we were back to our house.

My mother was barely awake, she thought I had gone with Kelly somewhere and then hurricane grandma arrived! It is a sight to see my mom being verbally assaulted by her mom and then my mom taking out on you dear sister.

This maybe 35 years too late, I'm really sorry Mom and Grandma that scene oh my lord!

I remember teaching me to ride a bike!

But I have to admit that when you decided to go into army Army I had felt that I had lost my best friend. But more than that, it was me, mom and dad alone for quite sometime and Dad was quite insane.

You also hid for me something that I never told anyone. That my father's madness was so bad that I had the thought and put in motion a plan to commit fracicde. But instead me and my father spent a long time in therapy and I never thanked you for that either.

The day you left for the army are carved your initials and the date in the front window bay. I knew that was the last time I would see you in New York.

4 years later and when all of us were living in Arizona I actually stole my bonds that my parents made me get and cash them in so I could take you to the most fancy restaurant a 14 year old can afford.

But also Kelly I never understood why you couldn't tell me about the fact you were gay. I know that mom made you hide it because she was so old fashioned that she thought you could influence me, but surely you knew in high school my best friend, and as a matter of fact alot of my friends are gay. I would of never judged you even if I was a practicing catholic at the time.

Although for years, we had a very complicated relationship and I really don't know why.

We really only talked on mother's days and birthday's. I remember when I had my car accident i was quite shocked you didn't know about it!

We weren't speaking regularly until our parents suddenly were robbed from us at 59 and 60 years old.

Where ever we are now I'm glad we are friends it took us a long time just to speak about normal things, but I also think me and you are alot more alike then you think