That Girl Inside Me

He always felt there was something inside of him. He talks to her every day and night. She was with him as long as he could remember. But he never showed her to anybody. She always wanted to see the outer world. He tried his best not to let her out. Because every time she showed herself the world gets mad. They belittled them with their striking laughs and cruel words which pierced through his heart like a sharp-edged sword. He didn’t want to face and explain them about her. He built a cage for her so she can live within him secretly. Little did he know she wanted to be free. Despite the cage, where she has been chased for years, she got herself out in the world again. Despite their laughs she faced them and bore all of their anger. He told her to be careful and don’t ever get close to someone. This world is cruel and everyone is hiding behind a mask. She was dumb enough to express herself to someone a little more. She fell in love and got badly hurt. With her broken heart she came to him, his body was so fragile and it was not able to hold all those tsunamis of unwanted emotions. He was deeply hurt because of her.

He asked her, “why are you inside my world, every time I let you out you get hurt and that causes me pain.” she told him, “I’m your part, a piece of your heart, you never wanted because you are too afraid to show me to the world”. Both were badly hurt he blamed her for all of this. He tried to lock her because he just wanted to numb his pain and get rid of it. She was stubborn didn’t let him controlled her. He got afraid because he didn’t want to get hurt again. His body was shivering and he was feeling cold. He grabbed the knife and killed her. Then he put her in the cage. She took all the pain and hurt with her, went far away from his world. But his hand remain stained with her blood. With heavy heart he grabbed the pen the guilt of killing her was devouring him so he tried to write it down:

Sometimes I feel there is a girl inside me ,heart broken and frightened

I tried to keep her in me silently but the truth is she wants to live

She is alone, despair and sad , every time she shows herself the world gets mad

Striking laughs and cruel phrase in the cage she has been chased

I don't know about her . Why she is inside my world?

She was the one who fall in love it's not her fault I let her to do

You broke her heart, she broke mine she was in pain and was really not fine

All the day she made me cry no one was there to wipe my tears

So I murder her in my own fear and made her mum for rest of my life

She has gone in another world and took all the feelings that reside in her

My hands are still stained with her blood lost in her memories’ flood

So I don't feel love anymore because that girl inside me has already gone

After writing this he put the pen down and heard a voice, “Don’t worry I’m still here I told you I’m a part of you, you cannot kill me. Have you ever heard of someone who was able to get rid of their ability to love?