Chocolate Cake.

I went to his house

and everything was different

darker, unsafe, it wasnt home anymore

he told me to take off all my clothes

and he told me don't come back until that shits off of me

he disrespected me for a women who tried to kill me

and got me sick during my pregnancy that means yoru child came out of me sick too

but it is okay, I wont come back and its time to be a big girl

to grow up and be a women now and enjoy life without you

he told me knew what they did to me

and took a picture of my face

he grabbed onto my hair so gently

I became in love

like this is what I wanted the whole time

and now your teasing me

you had your chances

and I had mines

he was acting weird like normal

He left

and I looked around and took his weed by the window

and I went to go into the bathroom

as I go someone in the shadows of the living room

says that's scar in such a confident. malicious voice

her tone sounds like she could laugh at me right now

and I went into the bathroom

to turn on the shower to sauna

I quickly walked out because

I knew this energy is no good

I felt like a set up, something told me to leave

I couldn't see the heat or maybe I just panicked

I felt like I had to bang my head on the wall

at this point I lost my trust for him

and this wasn't home anymore

it was maybe laced

I can't tell from all the times of people trying to poison me through blunts rolled or bags

I'm kind of messed up and shouldn't be taking anything

I just ran to my phone and quickly got dress

told my mom I needed a cab

I sounded like a little girl like I know I know sorry

I was just really lost and trying to find my way out

and then I left the house to see someone outside watching

like if they was waiting for me to leave perhaps

and then the Spanish driver went a route

wear I can see almost like nine police cars

that looked like they was ready to come to that address

I knew they was going to make someone in a red hat kill themselves, they did this a long time ago the act team says

and at church they said history repeats itself

and in my dream they gave me a sign of the sun and the clouds moving by it looked the same way as the summertime sadness video and they show me the moons so much meaning and Im just wondering whos taking me now since I no longer can be with him

That night it looked like hell to me from how many police cars was faced in his direction ready, those red lights shinning

the way his house was set up and it being night

and how dangerous it was going to him now

I never will come back to him after this

she stepped out of the shadows and I saw her

from her foot jiggling her toes as if she was the baby

first then face

then she went back in so I won't see her

acs has told me she was the baby too

and told me i cant have jospeh or nila so..

the same women that came to my home

with a pregnant stomach like to rub it in my face

and she told me I was beautiful

because all the girls like to tease me on things I cant have

and rub it in my face until the point your throwing tantrums

because why do I got to sit here and watch you tease me

when I can be doing something with my life not worried about you

they just looking for attention

and I couldn't understand how was I

If I was sick and disgusting again

he wouldn't even touch me

or anybody

she kissed my hand

they came to my house late at night as acs

other acs workers came before and told me they saw my baby naked

and I realized now joseph was the baby

because of course you saw my child when it was born

I'm smart enough to pick up on the sneak dissing me again

and I knew where joseph was with so I know

But why you have the nerve to fake a pregnancy

and show up to my house?

she told me she had to discipline me

and I was not doing anything wrong

so Im stuck here confused

Months later I harass him; joseph

and he finally gives me his number again

I call and he talks so disgusting

I cant understand why he got me pregnant then

and someone was laughing at me next to him a women.

My number is blocked.

I dont have family or friends and acs told me what it was already

and the courts told me what it was too

so i lost my child to I will never see her again once I am with someone else

not even when she is older

its been eight long painful suicidal years

and it was all because they didnt want me to have jospehs attention

and he doesnt wnat me to leave him so he is blocking all my money

all he doing is helping the women take my soul away

he does not love me

I dont want to know whats wrong with him and I am done with him

so sad to say finally I am done are you happy now?

I'm suffering because I took another slice of chocolate cake. I should of known to run to the train station and look for safety. Just run, run, run. I went outside after I dreamed Jospeh was at the hotel surrounded by alotg of women and the spanish people closed the curtains. I lost it and went out late at night thinking I would find him running after me again. But he was at the hotel and I ended up going into the car. I told him to take me to Jospeh and he did but not the same room as jospeh and I fell asleep did not have sex, he just hit me and wanted to poke me liek every other man that has been using me or raping me for a women who wnated me to kill myself. The women wanted to ruin me so jospeh would not look at me so she can have a child. So i woke up sick and in lots of pain burning with boils. He had an injection and he put it down my mouth when i was sleeping. This was egypt and they wanted me sick. It reminded me of when I was a child at eleven how I just met joseph and then I left. I stood extrememly pretty for only a year as soon as summer came I had alot of jealousy from neighbors. Then one day I was depressed and lonely so i took some liquor my moms boyfriend had brought over and took a sip. Then my mom comes to me with a chocolate cake, I really can't remember who. But I took two bites of it and threw it out cuss it wasnt cooked right. Not knowing it was a witchcraft cake filled with nasty fluids of sickness. The very next day I got into a very bad fever and couldnt even stand up straight and had to lay in bed because I was that weak from the sickness.All I had was water there was never food in teh house for me so i usually just drink lots of water and go for teh snacks until school time comes. I wish I'd never eatten it because I would of been fine now. Chocolate is a sad women's joy and love now its more like I don't want to die I rather starve.

I lost a love, I lost my beauty, I lost my life, I lost my time but still I continue to fight for freedom and health and move on with this heart that hurts to death. These chocolate cakes has taken my entire life away from me. The spanish people want me with nothing, old and sick I have to run.