About the cruelties of this world.

In this day and age, people shy away from conversations, families, friends and even the ones that you have given your heart to so deeply and yet they ask you why you are the way that you are, all i feel these days is pain but not in the physical senses, i feel mental anguish, the worst pain that there is to feel, this demons and madness that i hold inside, who do i tell about it? how do i keep on going? will it ever cease or is this my new reality? all these questions still not yet answered, for i am a man with so much questions and not an answer in sight, not an epitome of serenity is close by, for this pain i feel and this pain i have felt, betrayal and tries, trust, a hundred years to build but a single moment in time to ruin it all, once again i ask, who do i talk to? who can i share these burdens of secrets with? who will understand? who will see me for the good man that i am and not the monster this world has made me into, a monster filled with so much hate in the body of a man filled with so much kindness and love, if there is a God i hope he hears this, i hope he hears my cry and understands that i am a mere mortal, i shouldn't be asked to carry all this pain, all this weight, all this anguish and all this knowledge alone, please bring someone into my life that can help fill this void, for i am a man who has gazed into the abyss and now the abyss gazes back at me, for in this fortitude that i now try to hide myself in, i am only afraid of the madness that it might create, for i am a man not held back by the visicitude of the human nature, i see the flaws of every human being that i meet and i see their hatred and lies so clearly, should i tell them? should i just nod ahead whenever they spill out these lies of self hatred and reflection, should i not say a word? should i smile even when i know that their intentions are filled with milice and disdain, maybe this is the curse of knowledge, for in the long run, knowledge will always be pain.

In the animated series called Naruto there was a character of interest called PAIN, he believed that for one to be able to cherish and understand true happiness then that man must go through the worst opposite of happiness which is self hatred that has led to pain and destruction, for a man who has not seen both sides of a coin can never truly win a coin toss, to understand what happiness and love means, one must experience pain and suffering.

A man should not shy away from suffering or adversities for in this path will he find what he most desires, a man should embrace pain, and all the vicissitude of the human nature, and when he feels overwhelmed then all he has to do is just to let it all go, understands that you can't control everything in the world, you can't control whether a leaky ship makes it to port, control what's under your control and power and let not the things outside of your control to bother you, All stoics believe in moral virtue and if moral virtue dictates that in the doing of good that nothing should be spared not even our lives then that's what we should always do, for in the face of oppression you decide to do nothing then instantly and automatically you have taken the sides of the oppressors and that makes you the biggest and greatest coward that there is.