Your eyes, My sun

I can't even begin to explain, how lonely my life has been without you. I didn't realize how much you were going to end up meaning to me at first que; the more we spoke, the more your eyes locked into mine, like we were finally reconnecting after a long separation. You handed me a rose, cutting the thorns and giving me your jacket when I complained of the wind chill. I knew then, you were different. The way you studied me, the want of just being in your presence, I knew then, but I panicked.

You know my story better than anyone, you've witnessed the evidence and comforted me in times of madness. I had very little hope left when you first walked me to the car door and opened it, but in that moment, your eyes spoke calmly, just telling me to be patient and flow with it.

That was hard for me, and you knew that. I've never felt such grace from another human being, especially one that seemed to really like...me.

The first date, the big one, I was nerves upon nerves. Checking my makeup every few minutes, curled my hair repeatedly, changed outfits six or seven times- and it wasn't that I even wanted to impress you, I wanted to look nice for you. You took me to an art gallery, where you showed me local artists who have made more beauty than that of the art museum. We joked about the murder stairwell and somehow ended up in a parking garage, returning to the last door we walked through. Before exiting to our next adventure, you spun me in the center room and kissed me for the first time. Secretly, I had been hoping you would, and in that moment, we were the only ones in this world. Everything stopped. The panic, the stress, the fear of starting over- everything stopped. It was beautiful.

We've had so many adventures since then. Riding to New Orleans, bathing in aloe to rid of uneven sunburns, having food fights during meal making, sitting front row of a comedy club and so many more cherished memories. You've shown me such grace in this transition of my life, and helped me replenish my faith in good people existing. I was blessed to be able to stand by you, I'm honored to, you're the most exquisite soul I've met in so long.

This past summer was everything but expected, it was majestic, exciting and full of more love than I've experienced in my life. For that, I am grateful, and work daily to replenish you the same. Love is a word for most, but for us, it's all we've wished for. To finally have the fulfillment of the picture; the last stroke to finalize the art, is more than one could dream of.

Thank you, for being the heart you choose to be. Thank you for being a light this world needs. An energy demanding respect and showing kindness in the path. We deserve this together, we deserve everything good that continues to come. Whatever we pursue, whatever battles comes our way, I trust you. I believe you. I hear. I see you. I want you. I love you. I'm here.

Maybe it took longer than we planned, but destiny did what was meant to be. You always tell me, I was designed for you, and I can't help but agree, because it feels like you were custom made for me.

I love that for us, for our future, and for our memory.

We were in the wrong greenhouse. We've made it home now.