Word of the Day: 商品

I spent today with my assistant, eating crappy sushi in the park. We did other things too like go to the gym and buy some food. I also managed to visit my aunt and get some pictures of myself when I was younger in Hawaii. The squirrels were playing in the park, which gave me some comfort, but no answers to the problems I am facing; why is my aunt in California contacting me? Why does my dad need to sell the house? Who are the people staying in the house?

(I know I should explain some of this in another story but for now that's all I want to explain of that.)

I am hoping that the power of three will sort the whole thing but I know I need allies in figuring things out. I feel so many people are fake and I have no idea who to trust. Perhaps I do know who to trust; people want benefits and basically only work with people who can do something for them. I rarely want to say what I got because I don't want to be taken advantage of in that way.

Luckily I have a different aunt who has some influence/affluence so, I could probably barter some sort of agreement to get help with some lawyers or some people who could help me out in this situation in exchange for some menial labor or something. I am

I am just trying to think of the positive moments and focus on the gifts I have received. The only thing I can think of now is getting my labradorite back. I probably should go before it gets to dark.

My mom and cousin are in the front room so I can't really do much right now, or they disturb my energy quite a bit. They are completely fake and poo poo any plans I ever come up with that they think is too grand so I really can't speak to them or do anything extra around them.

Relationship-wise has also been sort of odd lately. I unfortunately have a P.I. following me ( they admitted after a while ) because I think they knew that I had no part of some of the illegal deals that have been going around around me. I have unfortunately seen many money deals happen around me that I haven't spoken to anyone about, and I won't go into detail to spare me any problems around that.

I unfortunately had a breakdown after a while and now people think I am crazy, but I am not. I just wanted to live a normal life but unfortunately ended up in some sort of A21 Studio film.

This story is unfortunately very disorganized since I haven't written in long long time so I am sorry for the chaotic train of thought. For now I feel like that is the only thing I can muster. I am also considering re-subscribing here and keeping this account as a personal diary so I can vent properly and not have to rely on very unreliable mental health system.

I don't have anything against my therapist and prescriber, but just after years of going through it and evaluating all I have been through, I feel like trying to fix the bad is less productive than just focusing on more positive things in the first place.

I will explain more of my circumstances later on but for now I feel like this is the most I can say for now. I'll try to organize this account to be better suited towards what I am trying to use it for now.