Word of the Day: 潜る

My story is sort of different than the way of water. In some ways it is the opposite. I was born near the beach, then we came to the forest. But really, I have been here so long, and I have different traumas around that so, I can't even claim that as much anymore, can I?

Today is so weird, I knew it was going to be weird but it is just... odd how everything is going down right now. I was very ready to leave then things happened.

I asked several people and they gave me the green light, then one thing last minute changed it. I guess I can't even say it is stopping me, it is just a delay if anything. I want to be clever and use this time wisely but, I also kind of just want to enjoy the day. Not everything has to be a competition of sorts.

I do know there are some like big things I need to do at home, which I guess I could do right now, but I wasn't prepared to work on these things yet so... I am hesitant just for that. I don't want to drain myself if I am going to run errands.

I don't like that I have to hide my smile from certain people. But generally speaking. I have been very happy.

Even seeing some people's darkness, I sort of... don't mind it; it doesn't feel like it would hurt.

I have some time to do things but I can't afford to just waste it.

Haha, is her husband mad at me? ....Or is it her ex husband?

Sometimes we can't help our fates. I saw it beyond his human. I am not saying he didn't have kindness or something else of merit. But I saw what would be ultimately the end.... I also saw what was the other side of the wick, burning from the other end...

I have had similar relationships; I loved a Libra but I ultimately felt death from him. It is foolish to pretend that isn't real.

Of course I love her, I never didn't. She is strong and beautiful. I also love the little liars who are actually of my blood.

The Libra is draining the little Aquarius, so I will pray for him. I can't do anything other than that though.

Ok ok, I'll admit it wasn't today, I sensed it 3 days or so ago.

There are some spirits about, but I don't feel they are bad. It is Friday after all.

I am in a mix of minds:

• in a happy emotional stupor
• having to plan a prepare for things greater
• tending to my TODOs

Ooo, I can't summon a fucking dragon right now.

All these emissaries from Beelzebub.. I just want to kill them. I just mean-mug them though...

Some dark thoughts entered my mind but.. like, I must be very much in love if I have no objection to those being actuated by the person in question... I do have to consider if this is my actual feelings or if it is what is going on right now. Like, if my mind is being compromised by what is astrologically/environmentally going on. I guess that is why I am being given a lot of pause.

Yea sometimes small evils aren't as bad as... when someone truly evil is given the greenlight.

Are you retarded?

No, I am just speaking facts. You don't think there aren't fronts for things?

A red herring is a distraction used to divert attention away from the main issue, acting as a logical fallacy in arguments or a misleading clue in literature. Originating from 19th-century hunting training, it is commonly used to derail debates or create suspense in mysteries.