Word of the Day: 肝に銘じます

Yes, I feel like I need to keep writing since I am not able to draw anymore. It sucks, I used to really like doing that. I am learning a lot more with Japanese but I need to switch to a math brain right now.

I will worry about that after I eat. I guess I can spend this time doing the minor research I am doing now.

I keep listening to Rentrer en Soi - Tensei

It was the last song I posted in the discord group. I feel a bit immature for storming off and listening to such emo music. Like, I feel it is such black cat energy or pissy teen from my own actions. I don't feel that way in my heart though, I am not really lamenting anything anymore.

It is more just, I need to think of the next term without even being done with this one. I need to make an appointment for advising.

I just realised I don't have time to get an advisory appointment so I have to do my best to just pick my next classes myself. I luckily have the paper for the requirements for that. I guess I should highlight the classes I've already taken on there so I have a visual representation of what I have left to do vs how many credits I need. I need to properly write that on my todo list though because it will need several subtasks.

I need to figure out where to get a list of my previous terms. I saw it before, I just don't remember exactly where it is on the website.

I tried to collaborate with my mom, and it was just stupid, she is fucking retarded. I just registered for the online class since it is easier. She is probably going to complain about not getting enough work but, she made her own bed.

I hav e decided to only put my thoughts here, I was writing some in my todo list out of desperation but I am going to try to prevent myself from doing that and focus only on physical tasks within that list.

Gary warned me of black magic and I was asking about gibin. It is either a "vacuum bottle" or a "thermo bottle" But it came about in the topic of magic so, I am wondering if it has some ritual meaning.

Virgos presence in this moment are not so certain. Ah now the idea of cooking and cleaning is coming to mind and its placements in magic. I still wonder about the gibin.

maat - feather, clock...

I am just struggling to keep my sanity, I don't know how I am going to deal with the humiliation rituals. I haven't even touched Social Sciences.

I woke up at 9:30pm and I am thinking I need to stay awake.

I am sort of embarrassed. I had sort of a wet dream about Oboushi-san. Yea, that is so embarrassing I am wondering about even writing this alone, but I think I'll just keep it at that and not go into detail.

I am sure it was because I was high. More importantly I need to get Math figured out. Really I don't know if I have enough time to come into the clutch.

I sort of made breakfast way ahead of time since it is 10pm and I plan on being awake until like 5 am probably. I've decided lately that eating gummies will add like 10 minutes to my timer. I don't know if that was a good amendment to my rules but I sometimes put eating on my todo list so, it kind of checks out.