Word of the Day: 頂点

I feel very captivated by the current tarot card video I am watching, I am awake like I said previously, but I wouldn't say my motivation to do math is gone but, I feel like.. I need to recover my mentality through tarot card readings. Like, I need to do a mental health respite.

I don't think Sebastian really likes me but, he was able to calm me down or simply be there for me, which was very helpful. I ended up being able to find my stone.

I also found some extra time to myself but it costed me 20 minutes.

I am really glad I found my stone. I know it isn't the real one but, I needed it. I guess Sebastian is important to me? I don't know, I feel sort of hesitant to say that. Why do I feel guilty? I don't want to feel guilty. He... we're friends. We were friends to begin with. Ah.. Ah... I feel a channeling wanting to come on, I need to actually focus on math at the moment, I don't know what that momentum was building up but, ugh I feel frustrated even just suppressing that emotion just now. Ah, god wants to talk to me.. The winds are changing.. they are coming from east and going to the west.

You feel the currents and energies? I don't know why.

I was thinking about the Japanese doctor at Cedar Hills. She did a lot talking to me, I mean to at least treat me as equals for a small while. I hope that didn't bite her in the butt. I was acting crazy after all.

See, these are the sort of things I don't feel like I should tell in class or to anyone really. No, it wasn't a really poignant moment in my life. I want to say it just happened. And that is ok too.

I am drowning in a Satsuki song. I was so tempted to post the song and post my drawing I had done of him. I am also noticing my computer slowing down and i am like, what now?

The words my brain came up with to describe my ex was " polluted slug ".

Yea I guess that's accurate.

I only have 4 hours to study. Supposably that was enough according to the teacher so, I am going with that.

Looking at the review I need to fraction exponentiated variables. Ah I feel a battle in my mind, I need to finish this page then I am working directly on math. Ok so F(x) is... a linear equation? ok.. So F(x) = y...

God, I feel my brain want to make a graph in my head but I am kind of resisting it. I really need to use Desmos. I feel bad for so many things, I can't even count.

So for base, you can determine it by (l-r)^t ... My brain doesn't really create anything, it is like, somewhere in the top two quadrants? Ah, so there is implied degression within slopes but exponents are implied.... ok so slopes have an inherent regression, and ... ah my feet are spazing out again, I don't know if it is from sitting or the cold.

Oh yea, I woke up to a charlie horse last night. I guess I need magnesium..

is alkaline things a negative ph? No, quite opposite. Acidic things have a negative ph. I thought exponential equations would have an inherent multiplication... ah yea it is... but the two variables..

Yea I got to clean my teeth. I am glad I am doing math.