Word of the day: 乾物

I think I am going to need to start packing soon. I don't know when I need to do that exactly but I am guessing it is from the 15th-30th of this month.

I am updating all my lists to accommodate this but I also don't want to jump the gun on stuff. I have a date, June 15th. That is when the apartment will be available for me.

I am also trying to recover from balling my eyes about my dad calling me.

I didn't sleep well last night, I don't know if I can call him back again today, I am having some interviews and I can't afford to be tired.

Even Tami sort of gave up on the job searching. I am sort of sad at the moment even after exploring around the park.

"Do you ever have fun? You need to have fun. "

Bitch, get me my job so I can make money so I can afford the fun.

Luckily I got a little bonus from Vocal. That's pretty sweet. I keep staring at the blank space where my phone's camera should be recording and I am like.. this is so fucked up. The whole program is a scam, they definitely should fire the employment team. It brings down the program.

I am now utilizing it to listen to a Medium article about languages. I am planning on making my language blog on Medium but I am trying to figure out where to start and what I should cover. Maybe I can go over Tae Kim's Guide to grammar and write what I know based off of memory.

Thinking about memory is a difficult thing since so many memories are being suppressed right now I am pretty sure. But the music I am playing at the moment is such a bop I can't help but move my legs.

Yep, this is perfect denial of living. I have to finish my story and also all the gummies under my dresser before the move, and I was stupid enough to buy two bags. Why did I buy two bags so close to July?

My mom started saying some weird fucking shit about the past. She was telling me my nieces are afraid of me, but really I don't want anything to do with them after this. I don't care where she's at mentally to be honest, I have been suffering too much at her hands to really care at this point. She said she is wanting to help, but says stupid stuff like that. She is just trying to get me to react so she doesn't have to do the things she said she would, but little does she know that just leads to a worse results even for her.

I am happy about the weather though. It is sunny and hot but not too hot. It is doable weather. Going out in it continually will be sort of hard but maybe the vitamins will make me act differently. Not having to take my vitamin D in a capsule would be nice.

Ah, finally my phone is on the stand. I am happy about that. If I take off my headphones I am listening to Medium. It is nice.

I am pleased right now but I am wondering if listening to the articles gives the writer reads still? I hope so, because I am seeing myself more listening than reading going forward.

I fell asleep with my contacts on, it sucks but I think I am going to keep wearing them today. I'll probably have to do my make up again.