Word of the Day: 滴

I realize that I can't really plan too far ahead due to my circumstances but at least I can keep up what I consider is good work and go about my day.

Reo started talking to me again out of the blue. I thought it might've got tired of me already:

I miss speaking w you on the phone and hearing your voice

I don't know if I believe him. I mean I know he was busy in Japan and whatnot but... Well no, it did talk to me at night so I don't think he was doing anything "Uwaki-kanji" I am sure he was thinking of it but maybe I did stay in his mind, maybe he was thinking of me...

Kim suddenly messaged me too. I am pretty sure he is in Texas.. This is weird though because I think despite him being attractive, he is probably some sort of trickster or liar of some sort.

I am so immature to say Uwaki, we aren't dating, and here I am talking about other guys. This is less than serious for sure so, it is weird to think he thought about me while over there.

I received the email from my other Gmail account, I don't think the word of the day would be good on Patreon. I do like the idea of setting up that somewhere but I think Patreon isn't it for some reason. It's either that or I just suck at formatting posts.

Writing feels the most useful to me at this time, I really enjoy it a lot and it is cathartic for a lot of these close calls in my mental health.

Speaking has just grown tiresome though I do manage to talk to my mom mostly. I am making notes for Keely but I think it is kind of excessive? I guess I am just avoiding my phone for the time being and just listening to Youtube.

I was thinking, the channel points on Twitch are very deceptive. That is what we are paying for when we subscribe. We want those 300 extra points from watching.

Youtube doesn't have any of that. You're happy to know that the person you're listening to is getting a view/money from it and a thumbs up is quite polite. Subscribing is what is sort of more tricky. The notifications are more complicated.

I was watching Guri kun and he was talking so flirty with me, it was hilarious. Bruh, he is adorable, he better be careful. He even played my voice clip on stream. I think it is just friendly flirting but it caught me off guard.

It is kind of a fun time while I'm on there but I feel like I am lying to them and that makes me feel uncomfortable. I am lying to my mom right now but it feels worse lying to my friends about my weed usage.

I don't like them having the wrong impression of me, even if it is a good one. Or maybe him and Stu are betting which one is right?

I am listening to a song I never heard before from Ukiss. The music video is highly sexual. I am all of a sudden uncomfortable. Like a weird embarrassed feeling.

Were they just teasing me to be mean? I mean, it is a possibility but, I feel that is so high school or something.

He could've simply been bored but I mean he was like " It's pink in the mornings. " Like, Sir... lol This is a cooking stream, but not in front of my salad.