Word of the Day: 願望

I bothered to call my dad from the number I had, not the one given on Facebook but it ended up being a wrong number. I worked myself up over nothing. Maybe it is that side of the family being weird like my mom thought. If they are messing with me for whatever reason like my mom says.

No, it was just the wrong number. I looked on Facebook and it was a different number. Ok... well I could try again but I am wondering if that was god giving me a break by being stupid for that second.

I am watchin Twitch on my phone to the side of me and someone is drawing some sort of fantasy relics. I find that brilliant. They have a whole series of items that they are making. I wish I could do that right now but I have to charge up my tablet and look for apartments. Plus, it is probably a commission and the only commission I have to work on now is that pixel art piece. I don't feel like working with pixels at the moment. I thought by now I'd have a job and could start saving up more but I find myself getting lost in writing projects. I even contemplate changing my Patreon to reflect this, getting rid of all the Pixie Road related stuff and make a language learning blog or something with it.

I guess I could just have a tier dedicated to that without outrightly removing anything. The question really is how to tag them and what to do with that. Making a Collection is obvious but I really need to consider the tags.

I have some names in my notes but I forgot the word for pronouns. Grammar is being a bitch right now, I am not fully aware of that right now for some reason. I am so frustrated because I studied that before and I remember nothing of it now. I guess my brain really is preparing to be a medical coder by doing a memory dump of all the old things not related.

I mean there is going to be a point in my life where the things I want to be or do will not be possible. Not out of a lack of wanting but being able to do the thing.

I guess I am at the age where writing will become my friend for the most part. I do appreciate this because if I didn't have this outlet, I really wouldn't talk to anyone.

We take in so much daily, inundated with so many forms of streaming and video consumption, it is no wonder we can't do too much in the day. I don't know if the paper tablets really help with this, basically it would be an app on the phone if not for the paper.

I see the bridal doll in the case shake as my knee shaking rattles the floor beneath me. I really would like to go somewhere.

My mom took grandma to Salem to get her bloodwork done. I asked her to buy me onions for my hair growth concoction.

I am hoping it helps with reducing some of the grey hair. I need to buy that turmeric soap too. There is all of these payments I need to make all of a sudden and I haven't paid my credit card yet. I can only write about it since money is scarce as a mofo.

I am really utilizing the notebook for studying now though so I am happy with that. It brings me a lot of pleasure to use something I got to its fullest.

I do regret pulling out a few pages of it out for mom to use though.

Compiling has become a nightmare. There is a backlog to so many things right now due money and I went a bought some shoes.. I feel it was an unnecessary buy but they actually are.

My current black and white tennis shoes are tattered, I deserve to walk in good shoes.