Word of the Day: 医者

I really want to listen to tarot or something right now but, I don't think it is enough time to really. My plan really is to just write as many notes in class as possible, get out to the cafe and order something with caffeine in it, then head back up to either the 2nd or 3rd floors to study in a nook if they're open.

I want to just enjoy my time right now and wait until the door opens. Alex came, I am glad. He seems to be having and easier time for this class than I am.

I just got to make it up today as much as possible.

I am just figuring that I can get the homework in and then possibly study after. I do need to consider that youtube might have videos there for me to watch and learn as well. If I say that then I might as well use the videos in the modules.

I am ok for now but I don't know how long that will last without actual learning taking place. I also just have to be wide awake for class so I can absorb what the teacher is going to tell everyone.

I just got to hope for the best either way. I probably should attach my headphones to the computer now.

Hopefully that will be enough. I need to put away my stuff soon. I finally see a dip in the battery at this point and it has been 30 minutes according to my timer.

I am considering going to the club because, it would be nice to talk to more people around campus and not be the awkward older person not doing anything.

I wish I could write Japanese here but it is simple enough to just switch over to Langcorrect. Which I do try to do, or at least I should do it for my homework. I need to practice the correct answers for the tests I will probably take in a few weeks. I hope that my teacher will let me off easy for the first assignment since I didn't have access to the book.

I need to submit my last math homework soon. I still feel bad about copying the back but until next weekend or something, I won't have time to study really. I seem to be doing ok but, it is barely so.

I also worry about my classmates in the Japanese class. I want to use my Japanese but I don't want it to look like I am trying to look down on them or anything, I am just using my skills.

I ate my two meals already so I am feeling sort of bloated. Not only was it beans but it was also orzo so, it was just startch.

I am listening to Kpop on the tv right now, which I don't even know if I should do right now.

I am realizing my mind is really becoming too malleable right now. I have to handle my moods too by myself and that is sort of hard to do. I can't compare myself to my classmates either since we are all dealing with our own troubles and it is up to us individually to figure out how to get out of the pit.

I got 20 minutes on the timer. I can either just work until it goes off or I can try to earn more time now.

Either way I am trying to survive this moment. I just want another gummy and forget about everything. I was ashamed more but now I just feel lost.