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Word of the Day:自己陶酔

jikotousui - narcissism

By Kayla McIntoshPublished 7 months ago 3 min read
Word of the Day:自己陶酔
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I woke up so early this morning I decided to look up more stuff about the medical coding that I am wanting to do. It doesn't seem too hard but it does seem time consuming, you have to be aware of a lot.

When I say it doesn't seem hard, I meant to me. It might be hard if it is too boring or not engaging enough but I think that is not an issue. With my limited knowledge, I am considering it to be similar to how Kanji has several readings depending on how it is placed in the sentence; similarly the codes as they were, need to be placed appropriately.

The lady on a Youtube video said that it isn't like flipping through a phonebook and finding it but it seems that way to me. I guess the time constraints and such make it more imperative that you memorize more than search for the information yourself. Also, I am sure there is a program like the CAT with professional translating, that helps with finding the codes and inputting things correctly.

I am just tired of all this waiting bullshit, I just want to study it already. I guess I got the library books waiting so that will be good. At least I can somewhat study with those.

I don't want to buy the books now because I can probably be reimbursed through VR or ACT so, patience is sort of a virtue here.

I was going to buy weed today too but I think I will not have time for that today...

I ended up going but I had to call it very close as Teresa was coming at 1pm. I had 30 minutes to spare when I got home. I also got a notification that the library books are in so I can start studying now as I wanted to.

The question on my mind is though: How did my dad get my message if the phone is a wrong number?

To explain a bit, my mom wanted to send a message to my dad so I gave her the number in my phone, after she did that my dad contacted me via Facebook messenger on my aunt's account. He sent me a voice clip so I know it was him. In the voice clip he said he doesn't get messages normally on his phone and gave me a new phone number.

I made the mistake of messaging the old number a happy father's day and was told that I had the wrong number.

I don't know what that means but the question still stands.

Now that we're watching Everett, I don't feel it is a good time to message my dad on the new number yet. I do feel really bad about not contacting my dad this week but I will eventually talk to him. I think Sunday will be the day. It will be exactly a week after Father's day.

At like 8 pm we were told we weren't going to watch Everett so I feel like the day was sort of wasted. Oh well, I still feel like Sunday ( tomorrow ) is the best day to call just I wish I spent this day a bit better rather than waiting for nothing.

I woke up early since I went to bed at like 8pm. Me falling asleep early is sort of wrecking my medication schedule but I will figure out some work around to fix it.

I was going to try to read my books I checked out but my dog woke up with me and wanted to play so I had to spend the whole time pretending I was going back to bed to get her to go back to sleep.

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Kayla McIntosh

Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )

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  • Larry Shedd7 months ago

    Medical coding sounds time-consuming. Good you got library books. And that mystery of your dad getting the wrong-number message is strange!

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