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I am barely at Review 3 so it is like 14% of what I need to do done and I need Sunday finish fucking 9 things. All I am thinking is, fucking Ezra Miller needs to come back, my body is joneszing for that dick.

I don't even like that I wrote that down, I sort of don't even want to he thinks about a channeling. Yes I probably need to channel or I have channeled and I am in a Vortex now. maybe it is even Abraham Hick's Vortex, and i am trying to......... It felt.. too good. I want him to be in my apartment, pleasuring me. But.. I think there might be a class thing here, I might be in a higher position than him, surprisingly. I don't want him obligated to have sex with me...3 times a week. Would that be...

I mean, if I told him he could live with me if he had sex 3 times a week with me, would... he take that offer? I mean, I can't offer him now, I have Javokhir coming in December 17th. Maybe it was just his job to activate me for the rest of my life. To prepare me for reality. Sort of like a beautiful sending off, from the other side.

I am even playing with my cards right now and I feel like, it isn't bad but I don't have time to play right now. Not that spirituality is play necessarily but I have to do 3D things. Like Math. I feel sick though, I feel like I need to puke.

I got two assignments in, just 6 more to go. My legs are sort of shaking from how horny and wet I am right now, and I am forced to do math right now. I even occasionally rub myself to keep me in this chair. Even sometimes while writing down the numbers. I just want him to come and give me my last fuck of the week and he is playing with me.

I might not be able to have sex until tomorrow. I don't know if my body can wait. Maybe the math is making me go crazy. I am on 4.5 now. It is good, I mean fair enough progress but, this little game he. Does he want me to visit him?

No... I think I can't waste my time anymore on her. Oh Channeling again. I am reading Ryan Holiday. I have made a lot of food, but I have no one to feed other than myself.

I have to do math. But my Todo list is telling me to switch to Japanese for a while, at least 30 minutes of Japanese.

I have come to realize that, I have sort of squandered some of my free time. Yes sure, I am following my Todo list and that is going very well actually. And I am not in any time-debt, but when I do get my " break " or free time, I usually spend it doing something that could make me temporarily entertained but not very fulfilling. Also I feel like the time it is taking to door dash dick is too long. Perhaps I should really plan for a nice time with Javokhir and forget about the sex god for a while.

Basically my thought process right now is, " How do I want to spend my free time? " Not that I have an abundance for it, but I am so busy planning on what I have to do, I haven't thought about what I want to do in a while.