Word of the Day: 逮捕

I found a new way to organize my Todo list a bit more effeciently so, I am looking forward to the productivity from that. I am pretty tired but thanks to the tea I have been a bit busier than I normally would be, plus I am almost done with my list which then means I will text my address to that guy.

I am a bit nervous but I think even if it ends up similar to Robert, it wouldn't be a big deal. I am also pretty stoked to have cleaned the house myself so, it makes me feel good in that way too. It isn't perfectly clean, like 72% but that is nothing to rub your nose at.

He didn't look at the pictures I sent him so, I am thinking he might have lost interest already, which is crazy but some guys just crash out after a while for no reason. I have this one guy blow one little thing I said out of all proportion and... yea it was crazy but, I mean you have to leave room in your mind for that whole possibility, that someone is just fucking crazy.

I am so close to the finish line. I just need to put away my clothes and make the bed, then I will send him my address. All of a sudden I feel like that is a huge mountain to climb. I hope this all turns out well. If not well, at least neutral. I can't afford another bad thing this month.

I am trying to figure out what Mercury Trine Saturn with Mercury Trine Jupiter means? It feels like it likes very up and down. It says it is an expansion in wisdom and bountifulness but, I am just like, I dunno.

I think maybe I have taken too long today to clean. I mean, even if that is the truth, I am happy I did clean today. I should've done better but my cramping and... well being overwhelmed by horniness for most of the day has made it hard to do anything.

I guess it is really up to me because, the reason why we didn't have sex this morning was because I wanted to clean so I should at least finish what I started.

If he doesn't want to visit me after I send the information then, you know, at least I got my chores done and he helped me sort of in that way.

This kind of sucks. This morning and all through the day I was just in deep ecstacy with the idea of this guy coming over, all my nerve endings were firing off pleasureable sensation and stuff and I was just in heat all day. Now that it is night, I feel like it changed to cramps and I feel I am bleeding more. I am almost done with the chores, I just don't want to get done and it be too late or not worth it anymore.

I also worry he would just give up by now since we've just been sparingly texting today.

He might just want this to be a one time thing so, I have to also consider that and how I would want that to go down if that were the case; do I really want to waste our one time when I am in this condition? All at the last minute and such?

I don't know but I feel like, I have to at least finish for myself and, hopefully it will be worth it in the end, if anything I have a decently cleaned house.