Word of the Day: 転ぶ

I don't know why my phone isn't let me log into my class but, it isn't in plane mode.

It finally let me enter my class. I have so many homework things that need to be done. I don't know. I am still thinking about Eric's offer but I am kind of not wanting to do anything out of obsession or desperation. I want to be in my right mind so I don't have regret anything.

I have been having weed to just get through stuff but I should've sort of paced myself.

I feel a little silly about some of my actions but so far I don't regret anything but, I wonder if I should even meet with that Javokhir. I really don't want to waste anyone's time. I even thank you.

Oh yea I guess I can technically auto write even here since writing is my sanctuary. I feel like those fairies in Gunnerkrigg court who just do everything automatically while their spirits play in the Ether.

I wonder if I am being... well I know I am awkward but I would feel bad if I was getting in anyone's way. I feel like if it came to that, I need to learn to just excuse myself.

I don't know, maybe I should just take Eric up on his offer. Even though he is kind of too into me.

Ok so next Tuesday is the deadline for everything so. I feel like it would be really nice to actually write Japanese for a while....

So I guess I can optionally take the test on Thursday but there is a second option to.. take it later? I am with Elanor, I just want to get the test over with. I am definitely.

I did tell him actually but I feel... hmm I guess it was to gauge his reaction. I really didn't want to bother him with that but I just was curious.

I guess it also got me thinking of something different for a second. I hate my current problems.

Event going to club? I dunno. I guess I could. I might need to just do something that.. I don't know, requires my break, no break I don't want to take a break I already took a break and it ruined me. Well it didn't ruin me but thank god I didn't over book myself in the personal section.

I am here for credits I really need to do it but I feel like. It will take a lot. Even after this point.

I want.. I guess to talk to someone.

But I have no one I feel like I can trust. I feel like. Eric is the safest choice. Even if not long term.

I also have to actually think of how i am going to answer these questions being asked in Japanese.

I am only at 400 words right now but I need 200 words now.

I am really happy Jasper talked. Though he was kind of shy but I want to support the young'uns. He gay anyway. I am happy for him.

Then there is freakin James he probably needed a little break.

I guess I need to go over all my themes right now to see if there is any repeats and to just keep track.

After I submit this I will different? Eh what is different? chigau? Naniga?

Oh, just saying to myself.

But yea, let's see if I have any papers to write with right now since I feel everything is at home right now or at least my main notebook, ok?