Word of the day: 友人

Somehow I was tricked into waking up from my pleasure realm but I guess I need to handle food right now. I can easily doordash and have that be that but I am also feeling awake enough to make a shrimp sandwich.

I think I miss company. More than food, I need to watch a movie or something that makes me feel good. But I realize I am having to mother myself and a part of that is making sure I eat each day.

I need to buy my school books now and food. If I do anything today it needs to be that but I am so lethargic. I better hurry up and order the food otherwise I won't have a delivery person awake.

I managed to order some food so, I will wait for that before going on the other computer and ordering books. I guess I could technically buy it on this computer too but, I need to log on.

I see mike's harder lemonade available to buy and I am wonder if I should spend my money on that. I haven't drank in a while, it might be fun.

I am even tempted to roll dice for it, but I think I should just be strong and not. I am not feeling too good today so I don't think I could enjoy them even if I did buy them but at least I would have them at the house.

I feel like I am stuck in a headache, like the day feels like a headache even though I don't have one, if that makes sense. Like that little unease that lingers in the rest of you body as your head pounds in pain. It is like that unease, without the pain.

All of the sudden my stomach is sour. I don't know, I just know I got to stick to my tasks. They are small so I feel like if I don't do those, I am officially lazy.

I think I ordered food because, I want someone to care about me right now. I think I feel lonely and want to know that someone cares. I got invited to go out so it isn't like I am alone, I just feel alone. I feel tired.

The sky has a slight tinge of orange as the sun is setting slowly. I wonder what that means for tomorrow.

It's wasted time but, I feel I need it, I think I will not get moments like these for a while now.

I really don't know what is wrong with me right now but I feel like, taking care of myself is the only positive thing to do. I mean I could go out and walk around now since it isn't as hot but. I just want to stay home.

I'm probably only going to have a few bites of my sandwich before laying back down again but, I need to eat those two bites.

The only space I have to talk is here. I don't really have friends to convey anything to where I would feel like they really heard me and understood. No one really understands me. I didn't even think that was a thing to be honest. Do people actually care about each other nowadays?

That's a sad thought. I don't even know if I want the answer to that. I just want my food so I can turn on Youtube and watch a movie. It is the best I have right now.

I'll finish this story quickly and go pick up my food to do that.