Word of the Day: 嘆き

I am on a new page, I shouldn't be writing still, I am way motivated to actually do my homework, there is no point in me stalling the inevitable. But there is this really annoying fly that keeps going across the screen, but it seems to have stopped as soon as I wrote about it.

I just have to make sure I do my todo list. The timer/To-do list is my most important thing when I have energy like this, So I need to program my actions on that if I am feeling driven off course.

I've decided I need to organize my backpack for tomorrow. I only have 2 classes, pathetically. Because of that, I just really have 2 types of work in my backpack that I can put into the two main pockets.

I can smell alcohol from where I am sitting and it is distracting me. I want to drink it, but I also don't want the consequences. I probably need to refill the water jug.

I am not worried that I am wide awake at midnight because I have been sleeping all day so, any time I am awake I am happy.

I do remember my dreams, they had me in this large area where I was like running away from giants or, there was a lot of movement in it.

I want more weed but I am also sort of happy with just being myself right now, whatever that is.

I fell asleep for a bit then woke up at 4:25am. I am glad it is still early so I can submit some homework. I am still adhering to the timer, I have enough for like 2 and a half hours so... I decided to make some noodles and use the vitamin juice powder my mom gave me. It actually woke me up and fufilled my want for juice. I think I need to buy more of those because, if I can get my vitamins in juice form, I will probably most likely want to drink it more often for that sweet/tangy drink taste.

I just know myself, I have been telling everyone that since I've moved out of my mom's house, I have not had lemonade at all, and that used to be our to go drink all the time, there was always lemonade in the fridge.

For whatever reason, I didn't bother buying any lately. I guess to save money but, I guess since it is also hard to carry back home, but I think also to keep myself from drinking empty calories. If it is a vitamin drink, it will be lower calories and also give me something to bolster up my immune system/energy.

I know this is crazy but I feel with weed right now, I can get all my math homework done for today. Yes, let's go!

5am I am definitely going to finish any homework I need right now. Oh Keely is going to be coming tomorrow.

Lynn just uploaded a video so I am watching it right now, or rather listening. He is basically saying, brace yourself for some flack back from haters. I do feel that way, I have created some fuss in my Japanese class so, I know that they are not my people. Even before this warning, I was wondering how to go about it. I figured that I just got to keep my headphones in and keep to myself. I guess I can just use ChatGPT.

I think that would be a large insult to the teacher though which makes me hesitant to do but, I think I just need to focus on my education and learning despite what anyone thinks. I am learning for me.