Word of the Day: 横断歩道

Unfortunately I don't have time to retain anything anymore since I am barraged with the enviroment. I used to be able to learn 500 chinese characters a week and then, a bunch of jealous fucks told me to slow down. I felt self conscious of my ability to learn.

I was told it wasn't right, and then they drove me into the corner. So.. now I don't play that game any more. There is always a plan A, B, C, D, E, etc.

The whole point is not to let anything get you down. I mean, if someone can't come to you correct, they don't deserve a long place in your life.

Unless they are pressed by some external force, but then at that point, you need to tell someone. Unfortunately nowadays, Ai has made us desensitized to the truth. We have no idea what to believe anymore so the propaganda is actually causing us severe problems, and the wifi, ethernet, internet, bluetooth, are all invisible waves that affect how we go about our daily lives and also even other things. The world is lively now, and no one has developed the adequate nervous system to deal with it.

I guess I change the channel too much like my mom, she'd always be at the jutebox changing the songs constantly, sort of like, nothing she was listening to was good enough.

Probably just delusional about being there. I don't wait too much, if I don't vibe with a place, I just leave. But my mom always goes with her friends so, they wrangle her into stuff, a lot of humiliation rituals.

It is just all sort of weird shit, I know that night Jessica saw through the bullshit.

I prevented my mom from getting a shiv in the liver, bruh.

She doesn't even know because she was so drunk and stupid.

That's the thing that they liked about me, I could diffuse situations, but when you expect someone to do that every time, that is when it becomes selfish.

I am still trying to find something but it is hard without my glasses or contacts, and that is probably going to have to wait until next month unfortunately.

I have looked everywhere I still can't find my cap so... I give up for now but it makes me wonder where the hell I put it, it isn't like I went anywhere with it yet.

Oh well, I am getting some exercise right now

Yea, I don't know if I should keep lookign for too long, I will get upset or something. I have plenty of time to look for it but... yet, it is annoying.

I think god is preventing me from wearing my wig right now so, I think that is the time when you start to clean so... I am probably going to spend my time on that, transfer the wig wearing to the next day and then, try again.

I am thinking about that one project on adobe now. I mean, I got to figure out how to close that account too, shouldn't I?

Well, anyway. popping another tylenol since my feet are still aching.

Not as bad as when I went to sleep. Yea, I just thought of a song and then it disappeared like that.

I mean, this is my workout song, but I don't remember what the other song even was like.

Yea I guess, I just need to stay with Jahon or something. That's what this bird is telling me to do.

I am not sure though. Oh I guess he's staying at my mom's house? Probably.