Word of the Day: 漂う

Someone commented on my posts recently and reminded me that writing was a thing. I do enjoy it, it sort of revs me up to do homework or research something. I am having sort of a difficult day today though.

My nieces are staying with my grandma, and I am not too keen on seeing any of them really. I mean, it is just not useful for me to see them. But my mom brought my little girl over, and I am super happy about that. I just don't have her leach or collar so I can't take her out to do anything and also there is too much junk around so she can't run properly.

I am excited about a few things but also really emotionally drained by others. I don't know if I want to continue school honestly. I don't think I can do what I want there, but at the same time I don't really have a good exit strategy so, it makes quitting completely sort of hard to do.

I doubt my Japanese teacher could teach me anything as it is just against her principle to teach effectively. She's used to her routine and that makes it harder to be open to the different students technically. Or we just don't really vibe together, and that is fine.

I just realized I have two of the same browser windows open but I am not going to fix that until I am done with this entry.

I am happy that I am writing again as, I feel talking to myself is lonely. Typing has never been that way. I will probably have to look at my homework after this but I don't have any more slots today for that technically. That basically means that I'd have to dedicate most of today to chores and taking care of myself to get to the next page to actually have the space to work on my homework.

I'll be honest but that has made me very hesitant.

When my mom dies, I'll get to have my daughter. It is sad but yes, that is true.

I felt that statement in 3 generations, it is sort of horrible. I am just going to channel now because it is easier for me.

I am battling energy drain right now so, I am finally back at the couch but it is on my work computer. I am having a lot of reservations submitting anything through my work computer, honestly.

I mean not for Vocal here, but..

Now I am remembering Dominic Robinson. I feel very bad he became a transwoman but, I mean... Like, that wasn't my fault. I might not have been the best of friends with him and I am sorry about that, I backed away when I knew I wasn't giving him good advice. I can't be dwelling on that every time I listen to Kpop. He got to go to Korea so, I mean I think that is pretty accomplished.

Oh yea, I mean he's obviously pro-Korea more than Japan. That was our differences.

Well, he is from New York. I don't remember what street or anything like that, plus he's probably already moved since then. He looked exactly like his mom, it is like his dad didn't even try. It probably was a father wound. They had very hard time getting along. Ah maybe he was ashamed because he already saw his future. Not my place to really speak of these things, really.

I have to get back to homework, I'll probably have to change the music to do that.