Word of the Day: 教科書

I am writing another entry just because I feel like it right now. I don't really have the time but listening to Queen Amun Ra right now on Youtube, I feel like I should spend that 45 minutes actually listening.

She is talking about new and exciting love. She is very open to agape love interpretations so she doesn't push romantic love like some other tarot card readers. I think that is good because, we have to realize that there is a lot of different interpretations of love that don't even involve romance.

This is pretty much how I feel right now since being annoyed this day for some reason, this is more calming to the soul or something to think of more humanitarian things. I guess since my love life is such shit right now, it bugs me to even think about it.

I put my all in the Japanese club, I feel like, even though I might be able to do something else that might be more beneficial to me, this very much suits me so, I don't really feel like complaining.

I do feel like this is my job though, so there is a certain amount of resistance or, duty around it.

It is getting colder lately. I really like that it is cool now, I don't want it to get much cooler than this though, this is perfect right now.

Just a bit above chilly.

I am looking at the bag of rice in my kitchen, I guess I am rich thanks to the Japanese club... though they haven't really reimbursed me yet due to Michelle being MIA several days this week. I can't blame her, our class starts late in the day so it is inconvenient for either one of us to meet.

I am listening to another video... I feel a bit reluctant to spend 2 videos on a story at the moment... I actually have plenty of time now looking at the clock, but it feels bad somehow. I am not sure.

The more I am listening to this video the more I am wanting to listen and be carried away by the voice of the reader. It feels enlightening but it has no context, you almost wait for your mind to fill in the blanks like adlib or something.

I am thinking of the frog suits in Portland. I hope they are ok.

I wish I could go do that over there right now, but also I just realized that I am having constipation/bowel issues right now.

I don't want to eat until I get back home. Even then, I feel like I need to fast today. I am trusting my timer to do its job right now so I don't want to worry about anything. I am just happy to hear SA right now.

I am debating whether to do my homework before class or after class. I think I will do it after class because I just want to put away my stuff easily this morning.

I have to clean a lot. Also Andrea's a bitch. Fuck her. I mean it is just her attitude. Meh, I don't even think it is her, she is just the only thing that sort of sticks out right now. I think it is more... I don't know what my thoughts are around Sebastian coming over. I guess it is because Reo came out of the woodwork, but I think I know I am not about him really. It seems logical but.. It would just be a trap.

I think I am getting closer to figuring out my feelings but, it will have to wait for the next story.