Word of the Day:日常生活

A contagion is about as threatening as anything, we forget that people used to die of simple colds. Sometimes when you're on that death bed, that is the thing that does you in. Oh yea, I guess I am thinking of Jasmine for some reason. Well I don't want to think of Cedar Hills.

Oh yea, when I was in Cedar Hills Microsoft was down. T-dawg was in there too... poor kid. Marc shouldn't have been shouting at him. And that lady kept calling me Nunu and stuff... Now Tristana... Ah, daughter.... It is in the past.

The song Tristana reflects to me of my time in jail.. That's the pain that I am hiding from at the moment. I am doing pretty well with my math but, I feel like I need to edit my note paper soon. I used the back of my todo list paper.

The pajeon is undercooked but, the sweetness of the carrots and negi came out more. I don't really have time to write this page, the other two were fine but today I needed that time to make math notes.

I have 2 hours. I am so tempted to just use the back of my Japanese handout for the notes. It would save me time but I also feel it is my duty to protect my sanity. I have the freedom to be myself.

Now I am sneezing like I have an allergy to math.

No, I need to get a proper paper. I was trying to figure out if integers are no longer a thing at the fourth root but, I don't really know? I think I am primarily interested in the syntax which is a very odd fixation right now to have. Either way, the mathematical equation lacks context anyway so, attributing it to that, is sort of wrong. I feel like it needs to be my shorthand though.

I want to express my humanness. I feel too locked in. The sun is making it hard for me to see the screen anymore, but thank god for it. It feels so good on my legs. I really need to use both the front and back of this page.

It was nice to talk to Alex for a bit. He taught me about Tokipona which I guess is some sort of generalized con-lang. It was created for a woman suffering from depression apparently, but I don't really... ugh I am not confident about this test but I have to do it. I guess I know I got to just finish up this blog and then talk to the teacher about it.

I still need to write my notes, I feel like I only have like 63% of what I need, and that is not passing.

I am forgetting everything about what I previously learned so, that is sort of making me freak out. I just need to write the formulas as notes but, without knowing the formula's names I can't find it.

I remember that I need to find the names in the back. I don't know what else I need past the review.

It is 3am now. I told my mom ahead of time that I will not be going to Thanksgiving. I think I need a day of just meditation. I really need a break but, the teacher gave me a good deal. I need to take it.

Also, I almost am welcoming the future studying I am going to do. Like, it might.. well not calm me down, but I will at least not have to think of anyone, I can put my brain to better use.