Word of the Day: 捻挫

So it is Japanese club today but I didn't go. I had appointments and stuff that I can only schedule on my Japanese school days because my class is in the evening so, my mornings are free to make doctor/other appointments.

I didn't realize I had like 2 big tests due today so I am a bit worried about that but I feel like, I just need to study Kanji. I don't even think she'd test us on writing but I think just for my own sake, I want to remember the stroke order. Also I think it sort of helps me actually remember the kanji too even though I can read like 98% of everything already. I mean I have read 3 chapters of the book now and the only thing I've learned is " Sprain " Like, these are new Kanji for me, I have never seen these so I need to spend some time to remember it, but most of everything else is a mashup of things I already know... I don't know

Oh yes, I remember that writing is my sanctuary and I need to use it to get over this slightly manic mode I am in. I am peaceful actually. I am pretty blessed, I feel. I have a lot to do today so I don't really have the time, but I want to continue writing... As I do I think of Jaime.. I wrote a song in jail. I don't remember if I posted it here for a contest/challenge or not..

I am listening to the tarot cards to figure out my emotions right now, but I can't even think of feelings going forward. I need to do my homework but all I am doing is eating and writing here. I need to do a creative essay in Japanese and I am not sure what I should do. I thought about just translating Pixie Road, but that is actually pretty difficult to do..

I am just full and I want to sleep now... I mean it is probably from eating a lot but I think it is also because Sebastian wanted to meet up this weekend. I was basically rabid at the thought of it but I also confessed that I had a coldsore on my lip and tongue to which he said, " we can plan for some other time. " So, I spent like 3 hours being depressed and feeling drained from that. I am having a hard time to get back into the swing of things. I technically have my Sunday back but, I sort of want to keep to my schedule or, want to stubbornly be able to stay steadfast to my schedule, but my emotions have always been an issue.

I think it also doesn't help that I am feeling sick/unwell with the coldsores and slightly scratch throat.

I went to sleep early last night and woke up with a scratchy throat and a little bit of a runny nose. I am worried about going to school tomorrow. I guess I need to find my mask or something. I have only cleaned like 25% of what I said I'd clean this weekend and I need to focus on my homework today so I don't think that is going to happen either.

I was going to do the Japanese homework first but I think I need to use the milanote for something other than just staring at what I've already made.

I finally am sitting down to do homework at almost 2pm. I feel like that's not enough time.. I am giving myself until the end of this tarot card reading to call the pot shop and get some weed just... yea I need to crunch from now. The tea is brewing too so everything is in " getting ready " mode.