Word of the Day: 迷惑

I finally had some dreams that I remember. I was so busy and it was hectic for a while so I guess I had no time to dream but these dreams really made up for it.

I had like " friends " come over and help me get ready which happened to be members of Super Junior which was funny; Hangeng was painting my toenails while Leeteuk was picking out my outfit. Siwon was doing my hair.. they didn't finish because my mom didn't want my 'friends' over, which does mimic reality where my mom doesn't allow me to have friends over but in the dream I had confidence to talk to her about it or just had a quiet confidence about continuing my business.

I woke up and quickly made my mushroom coffee and went to the store by foot, 3 miles away. I can't drive so if I want food I have to go by foot places in order to get my food.

I paused my uber account which means I also paused my uber eats so, I can't do anything easily but I enjoy my food more this way. I think I might be in good mood due to the weed but that is well worth it if that's the case.

I was going to buy 3 gummy bags but they were almost sold out and wanted to keep the last one for display purposes so I only got 2. That is fine because, I don't really know when I will be moving and I don't want to have to throw out the bag in the park because my family will help me tomorrow and I have like 10 pieces left.

I want to pace myself going forward but I have like 4 columns of 'work':

• Educational
• Financial
• Domestic
• Personal/Entertainment

Juggling 3 things is hard but thinking of the 4 of them is exhausting. I feel like naps count as entertainment for me as of late.

Domesitic is kind of falling behind too. I only have 15 hours of clocked cleaning and it is the 14th. that is a little over an hour a day. That is fine but in actuality I need 10 more hours in the month to complete my obligation to my mom for living here.

Thanks to my mom I am able to save up what would be my rent each month for moving. I think it is good but again, it leaves entertainment to be just youtube and sleeping. Educational is basically Japanese. I have a new way of keeping study notes so I am hoping that helps going forward that the medical coding notes can be kept in a similar way and I can just alternate between those two using the notebook I have.

I guess that can actually count as fun for me because when I write in Japanese I feel I am using a lighter side of my brain, or I am like, " Hey, I can think in another language. I used to think a lot more in this language and remember what that feels like, but I am grateful for even this small glimpse of fluency or improvement. "

When I got really high I picked up my Thai book. I found myself whispering or softly saying the words out loud and felt the anxiety of trying to read the letters. I attempted to do this before but the concepts didn't stick so much with me and I would probably confuse the tonal marks for chinese pinyin, not that I even know that shit really. Oh yea, Shen Yeng Qin.. He tried teaching me.. Peter became a muscle man, it is crazy. He was a scrawny dude and completely changed.