Word of the day: 吸血鬼

My mom sucks the fun out of everything. I bought a new bed that is assembly required. I was doing it by myself for a bit before she came home and I was like " How fun~ " but I unfortunately needed her help when she came home because I didn't have a philips screwdriver and she then decided that she wanted to help me out with it. But all she did was complain and all of a sudden I found my body hurting and less happy about the project.

I do love my mom, I think that is a given, but over the years I really don't like her. We used to be friends but now I think that was a mistake or, it wasn't appropriate.

I had a dream that danorans, a famous fitness influencer. and I were streaming together on twitch and he transferred his users to my channel while we ate sweet potatoes together. I have no idea what that means:

Dreaming about sweet potatoes could symbolize abundance, nourishment, and success.

Abundance and nourishment:

In some cultures, the sweet potato plant's productivity and resilience symbolize abundance and nourishment.

Success:

Eating sweet potatoes in a dream could mean that your efforts will result in success.

Fruitfulness:

Eating sweet potatoes in a dream could mean that you will experience fruitfulness and breakthroughs.

Well, that is encouraging. Perhaps this fitness journey I am on will do well, or streaming will do well. Who knows.

I decided that perhaps it isn't the diet portion doing bad but the fact I actually walked like 5 hours a day while in jail so, the exercise portion is missing here.

I have ballooned back to 200 lbs again and I am really disappointed in myself for doing that. I know it is because I have been cheating on my own diet and not exercising. I am going to endeavor to exercise more in the park when I am frustrated with work or need a break from stuff.

The weather going forward is going to be too good to make excuses as to why I can't do stuff. I mean, I built my own bed last night, I can do whatever I set my mind to.

I always wanted a futon bed or a bed that could become a couch and I bought one off of Amazon. I had to assemble it and it took me 3 days to do, but I am so thankful for it, it is way more comfortable than he hand-me-down bed I was sleeping on that was slowly getting a loose spring in my back.

I am a poor person so even this cheap bed was quite the expense for me, but I am proud that I am sort of moving up in life, even if it is in a small way.

Today is Mercury in Aries and absolutely no one is uploading today for some reason. It is like the internet is empty right now, leaving me feeling empty.

I know I can just turn on music and work on the house but, I find myself super tired for some reason.

I ended up going for a walk in the park. It was really good, I almost didn't want to go home except I needed to pee.

I just wanted to just follow the Venus star in the sky onward on to past the horizon. One of these days will come when I follow that nudge but, not when my bladder is telling me to go back home and sit on the pot.