Word of the Day: 満腹

I guess I was hungrier than I thought. The flavors of the pesto turkey sandwich and beer battered fries healed me. The fry sauce is excellent. My mom said it was just BBQ sauce with mayonnaise but it is fire either way.

alas, my tastebuds are bigger than my stomach, with only half of my fries finished and half a sandwich devoured, I feel stuffed.

It did lighten my mood a little bit. At the very least, it gave me a bit of energy. Still, I feel tempted to go back and lay down in the bed.

Maybe I should do that and wake up a little after to buy my books on amazon.

Waking up I feel so nice, I have a full belly and and I decided to watch Dark Crystal. I need to feed the little girl inside of me sometimes and remember that she deserves to feel supported and loved too.

In this moment, my apartment feels like home. It is a happy home, even with just me and my child self.

I feel energized enough to even work on a project. Ah, the sky is turning grey. Will it rain tomorrow I wonder?

I thank god for my meal, it was very delicious.

I am not registering the town I am in, or the people who I have talked to. I am sort of isolated in my own internal peace.

Jahon took me out of my bubble. it was scary being with him but also more exhilarating. It was most likely he would've ruined me but, who knows where I would've ended up. He would've probably torn me straight from this world and put me in a different plane than I ever been.

Perhaps I am not happy. But even this content feeling is better than sadness. I guess it is not strange to hope that I have a good time at school. I was sort of approaching it like my life would be on hold for 2 years but, I guess that is not true if I do everything when I say I'll do it.

Back to the tasks I must complete. I think I am going to lay down again. Not because I am tired or sad, I actually am pretty happy and want to be cozy.

I laid down while watching funny reels and letting Dark Crystal play in the background, but as soon as the movie was done I got up. I still have my final tasks to complete.

I think that is what I am missing in my bedroom. The tv doesn't work so, I have nothing to entertain me other than my phone in that room.

I feel happy enough to cook or something right now but, I need to actually buy those books asap. Oddly enough, I think I am going to change my clothes. I am sort of hot in this sweater.

I feel really happy. I just want to go back to laying down and play a game or something. I am a bit sad no one wants to talk to me today but, I also have to consider it god giving me the time to do my shit while I procrastinate way too much.

Maybe that is actually what I am wanting now. Perhaps talking to someone would technically give me energy right now and I am just isolated.

I drank some tea because my ass is thinking I won't be buying these books until like 10pm or something.

I am just so happy or energized right now, I want to go back and lay down to enjoy it.