Word of the Day: 体操

I am sort of stressing right now and instinctively just started cleaning the house, the act of cleaning the house though is giving me some sort of energy. Also mixed with being a little buzzed, I think this is going to be the thing to get me through the night.

I still have my homework to do. I finally got my math homework in front of me. I guess I am starting from there. I have a review to look at and that is going to tell me if I am in trouble or not.

I am so glad that I am having the tutor tomorrow. But I.. I guess I have only to just do it. Whatever I don't understand will have to wait until tomorrow.

But I better collect what I don't know for tomorrow. I think it will be vital then.

I know this is weak of me, but i feel like i need to rest at the word problems in math. I don't need to think this much about something. The music I am listening to is so hyper and fun. I just want to do something fun right now.

I ended up just going to the couch. I am glad about that. If I laid down in bed I know I wouldn't get up right now.

I am reminded of when Jahon danced with me in the restaurant even when there was no music.... Was he really in love with me?.. I guess, we can just say, we both enjoyed living in that moment...

They are all in Portland. I feel so stuck here but I think it is mostly because I am hating this math homework. I am trying to get back on track to actually do the work, but my feelings keep getting in the way.

The only thing brining me joy in this moment is the cold fries in the kitchen. The small relief of walking to the kitchen and sheepishly nibbling on some nubby fries calmed me down just enough to come back over here.

I have to figure out what the hell an equation of a linear model to describe the data. I am sure I know it, just not by its name.

I ended up going to sleep at 11pm because, I felt like, I should take my own advice.

I woke up, and I got an email that my math tutor that I scheduled for today is sick and won't be able to show up. That is putting quite the damper on things. Until I finish my homework today and study properly for my math, I don't know if I'll be ready. I mean, I can probably just look up some tutorials on Youtube and whatnot but that was more work than I was planning for for today.

I am so happy I bought alcohol yesterday. I am probably going to go through the whole thing this week. It is ok, I am happy I am busy.

Also thanks to the Japanese club discord, it is giving me an excuse to relisten to some old visual kei bands I used to love as a kid.

Something a little annoying right now though, I have a Halloween plaque hanging up near my doorbell and since there is strong wind today, it keeps ringing my doorbell so it's putting me on edge. I am hoping that the wind dies down. One of my Styrofoam gravestones are also blowing about in the wind as well, I brought that one in. I hope it won't be too windy when Halloween comes around.