Word of the day: 病院

I am getting ready for my appointment today at 12pm for a procedure. I don't really want to mention what kind since it is kind of embarrassing but I am noticing that I am having a lot more energy than I did for the past couple of days.

I am wondering if on a psychological level, this appointment has been affecting me, and if that is the case, I am looking forward to being done with it so we can continue to our regular scheduled programming, haha.

I still need to finish my Jail Journal and also start uploading more of these stories into Medium, but I am holding up on that until after all of this stuff is done and also I need to plan for the lesson I will either be having Friday or Tuesday.

I haven't even read any of the TOEIC books I got from the library because I've been just feeling so much like shit and they are still waiting at the library for me to pick them up so it isn't like it is easy for me to access them. I asked my mom to get them for me the other day but she forgot.

I need to spend at least one day to study those which kind of will put my gaming project on the back burner. I probably will be able to still blog like this while doing that so I can probably work on my Jail Journal IF I remain energetic like this going forward and I am able to recover from the procedure relatively well.

I got an extra hour before my appointment and I am debating going through the trouble of putting on makeup or if I should clean the kitchen. I settled for doing my hair because since I got this Gem hair blower thing.

It is super easy with it now. I really want to get healthy and lose weight. I think I am just going to buy a bunch of chicken and salad mix stuff and call it good.

Kim keeps wanting me to set up some sort of rogue bank account and I am like, "Why do I keep attracting these bad boys or whatever? What is this?"

I guess it is nice he believes in my gaming project enough to want to donate but, I feel like you need to just donate in the normal way which is through my Patreon and accept the fees that come with that. I need to be able to keep track of stuff for taxes and such. Also the Patreon is going directly to my personal bank account so that's no bueno. If he sends me too much money, I might lose my SSI.

I don't really know what this guy's deal is because I don't think he actually likes me even though my kundalini awakening happened while talking to him. I think it is more of a friendship for me, and also I don't think he really fancies me himself because he doesn't want any nude pictures or makes any flirty things other than hugging emotes and calling me beautiful.

Perhaps he is just lonely and wants someone to talk to regularly. I can understand that.

Affter this procedure, I think I am going to go on a diet .I am just going to buy a bunch of chicken and eat salads . I did that when I lived alone, I would put a bunch of chicken in the oven with some BBQ sauce and just eat salads with it. I am so tired of being heavier now. I want to get back down to 150lbs. I used to be so pretty when I was younger, I know it will look a bit different from that still now that I am older but I know I would look better if I was skinnier for sure.