Word of the Day: 雷

I have this Japanese song in my head, I am very healed by the melody, it transports me to another time, perhaps a play or something.

I used to watch kabuki and stuff like that on Youtube but I doubt I have the patience for that anymore.

I think I am actually doing well, even though I am not exactly on the ball, I am choosing to trust myself and know that, I am moving at my own pace and I am allowed to enjoy the moments I can. Maybe I don't have the ability to enjoy Kabuki and studying right now, I know it will come back to me, or a similar feeling will return to me again.

I think the feeling about my apartment having the same feeling as my mom's house was like... early 2000's sleepover sort of feeling.

I felt like listening to TM Revolution's Aoi Hekireki all of a sudden.

I would love to go to karaoke with someone and sing this song.

I think the only real sin I have been committing lately is the one of Sloth so, that is where my brother is off his rail.

I am close to remedying that anyway. I am just waiting to finish my soup. It wasn't really agreeing with me but I refuse to let food go to waste.

Something in me wants to eat more gummies, maybe it is a secret loneliness I have right now. I guess because I am not in the ether right now, but I don't need to be in it all the time, that is how you get lost.

This is sort of crazy but, I just realized, I have a youtube channel that I probably should actually organize. I should at the very least put it on the project work book. Sigh, another thing I need to do.

A sort of evil thought crossed my mind. I can tag Bobby's channel to my Youtube. That would just be me antagonizing him.

I don't have my headphones on, I should probably put those on since it is going to soon be 9pm.

I am just annoyed at the thought of charging them later.

I am just dancing around to TM revolution, it is so fun. I like to try and sing like him. He really has a good voice. He is short but really sexy. He also has a big head but I mean, it carries all his important thoughts.

Running 3 computers is ridiculous.

I can't believe I turned on the timer for the Work Computer, I am not ready to work!

What is work anyway, it is just completing tasks in that corner of the room.

This is my habit and I need to allow it to be my habit because I have determined this is my stability.

Tarot is asking me what I love. I don't really even know since I have been cherishing my peace so much. I guess that is what I love. I do need to start creating more or focusing on creating things. I have been doing a lot of input, I need more output.

Female spy? I feel like going back to bed, or maybe it is that I want to go back on my phone. I feel like my phone is pleasure and the computers are work. Doesn't matter which one it is, whether it is the the Personal or the School one, my stomach turns at the thought of using the Work one.

The soup is good, I hate that it affects my stomach. Maybe that is what the mint is for.