White Water

I am making progress with my language learning despite having a bunch of things to work around. My Human Tasks are going pretty good.. My friend recently kept me from doing 2/4 of them. But, I am trying to recover today

I have actually like 3 drafts of different attempts to write today but since my mom, brother and youngest niece came over to help me move or prepare to move or something, I can't write so freely right now, but it is fairly easy to keep up posting right now. I have plenty to write at the moment even though the more juicy information has to be with held for now.

My mom keeps bothering me about a coffee maker for me. Like, I am really happy to just buy stuff as I need at my new apartment. I find it more peace of mind to take whatever I have now and just go.

I am also thinking about some of the things my friend said. I am sure some things were passive aggressive. He gets slight bouts of that, but it doesn't really bother me too much because... I would like to say I know where it is coming from but it is more like, it doesn't hurt when he tries to hurt me.

It is mostly just cleaning and sort of getting back into keeping up to date with my subscribe Youtube channels. I am trying to kept in mind what I have seen on my explorations.

I like walking around at night since that's when the zombies are out. I like seeing what's going on and act as an observer of what's happening. There was a secret party near the crematorium/florist. I was sort of tempted to go inside but.. this is going to sound odd, but I was afraid I'd see some someone I know? Same reason why I left the Conservatory Bar as well. It looked fun but there was just way too much people there... I don't even think there were any tables open.

I did watch Wanda Vision a bit, I quite like it. It is kind of funny. I actually have a lot of energy thanks to my new friend but I can't let any of my family know, they'll just ruin it. It feels horrible at the same time though, because most of my stuff is packed up and I can't really work on things freely. I am staying pretty loyal to posting here though.

I do want to be more honest but since I don't have a homebase I feel like I still have to be careful. I am so close to getting out on my own, I can't afford to mess anything up right now.

My niece said she was suffering from a headache but now it transfered to me. Unlike her, I am not pregnant so I can take tylenol.

I feel sort of.. not really worn out, I feel very energetic and somewhat happy but... I just feel like there is something missing. I don't want to create problems whre there isn't any so I am going to try and milk this feeling for today. I also know now that my mom's boyfriend is coming on Tuesday so, that gives me plenty of time to get away from these guys.

I just thought that I am living now, and there will eventually be an end, but I feel like there are so many positive things in front of me right now. I don't feel worried or anything. It is really nice for how much suffering I have gone through this year.