What Now?

When, I think about what I want to be in life, I had a list of careers in my head and as each year went by, the list got shorter and shorter. I am a very creative person so I fell in love with the arts, fashion, and music. You'd think that having a list of careers and jobs that I liked would help a lot with my future well, I think not. I am currently in college and I'm majoring in Business Administration and hopefully minor in entrepreneurship, fashion design, or fashion merchandising. Once I graduate, I already know I'm going to be like: What now?

I always wanted to be a singer when I grew up but quickly realized that showbusiness is tough and not only that but my mom pretty much made me think that either you believe in God fully or you become a part of the Illuminati or sell your soul or something in order to be successful which kinda just creeped me out a little. But anyways, I still write songs and things like that because I still love doing it but to become famous and things like that, it can just stay as a dream I guess. If I were to end up in the light somehow, I'd rather be snap-finger famous. Like Maty Noyes. (No offense to her, I actually listen to her music, but most people I talk to don't know her). But, I gave up being a singer as a career.

The next career on my list was to be an author. I always like to be in English class and when I had an assignment to free write a story of my own, I was super excited. I loved it so much that I began writing books in middle school, although looking back at them, the stories were a little cringe. There was one story however that I still like to this day so I am currently rewriting it in hopes of publishing it one day. The problem with me being an author is that I tend to get writer's block very easily. Like I would have the entire story laid out in my head. Major events, plot twist, book cover, excreta. But when it came to sitting down and writing chapter by chapter, I would only get through a couple before I would be like: What now? So I'd say to myself "Let me come back to this, maybe I'll figure something out later." It's been months now and I am still stuck on chapter 3.

Another career choice I had was to be a fashion designer. I love to draw so drawing dresses and accessories was my thing. As I grew up people told me that being a fashion designer was gonna be hard and I've been hearing it so much that I actually believed it. I thought that I wouldn't be able to make it in the fashion industry. But then again, It's not like I was asking to be as well known as Calvin Klein, Betsey Johnson, or Coco Chanel. I always saw myself in a store creating my designs and selling them. My ultimate goal was to make the customers that by my products satisfied and happy. I wanted them to feel like they were powerful and that they could do anything in my clothing. And lastly, I wanted them to feel confident in themselves and who they were as a person. If my store became popular, I could open a few more in other areas. That's how far my dream went. So that is why I am in college studying Business Admin. I hope that I can make it in this world and know that I reached a huge goal of mine. If not, I still plan on writing books on the side, and maybe I can still find a job related to fashion or something. Who knows.