Childhood
Love
Growing up the way I did, in a broken home with nothing but fear, few happy memories, and disorders, I grew up starved of everything. I was distanced from my peers and sometimes my own family. I didn't really make connections with anyone while everyone else seemed to click together. Whenever I met someone that was nice to me, I instantly latched on to them. I was just completely craving and chasing the love I wanted. It's not like my parents don't love me they do. It's just they're parenting styles, the cycle of abuse, the stress, their health, all of that took a toll on them to the point where they took it out on us. My mom more than my dad. At least my dad would have a reason like, we didn't clean something right or someone like my mom or grandma would yell at him to yell at us. But mother would do it just because she could. Of course, that doesn't excuse neither of their behavior but back to the matter at hand. I was just so desperate for that connect I was deprived of I would latch on to that bit of kindness I was shown.
By Calypso King 3 years ago in Confessions
Terror
There's fear in everything. Some fear things people would call nothing. Like butterflies. (Those things are really ugly up close though. We've all seen that one SpongeBob episode with Wormy.) Others fear what people would call more. Like death and surgery. But when it comes right down to it it's all just fear. Of course, there's that sickening type of fear. The one that never goes away, the one that follows you everywhere no matter what you do. I'm talking about terror. Pure unadulterated terror. Like fear, terror can be derived from many things. Bugs, the ocean, animals, flowers, and well people. People like the strangers on the street. It could be the woman you passed by today. Later you could find that after a short conversation with her, she got arrested for butchering her people in her basement. You'll always wonder if you would have been next. That type of fear could follow you everywhere.
By Calypso King 3 years ago in Confessions
"The Power of Belief: Harnessing the Strength of the Mind"
"Transforming Your Thoughts, Transforming Your Life" is a subtitle that suggests that the belief one holds can have a significant impact on one's life. It suggests that by changing the way one thinks and the beliefs one holds, one can change the course of their life.
By Stanly Solomon3 years ago in Confessions
A Dark Adventure
I used to have incredibly vivid dreams as a child. They sometimes manifested into night terrors/waking nightmares. It made it hard for me to tell the difference between dreams and reality at times because some dreams melted into reality. And some were so real that I didn't know I was dreaming while I was dreaming it.
By Mary3 years ago in Confessions
A Grave Adventure
My brother and I grew up outside of a small town in the northern midwest on a five-acre homestead. There wasn't (and still isn't) much to do around those parts so finding activities to entertain us during the summer months, when mom was at work, became interesting. We were just curious kids, looking for something to do besides torture each other - as siblings do.
By Mary3 years ago in Confessions
