Scattered Thoughts of a 36 Year Old Woman

I’ve always been a woman with so much love to give, and so much love in my heart, I’ve just never known where to direct it. People don’t notice someone like me in the grand scheme of things, but maybe I think if I can at least touch one person’s heart, the world could be better. If only it were that easy.

Sometimes I try so hard to speak up and point out to people that they are just further fueling hate with their reactions, but it seems like a useless battle, because everyone already seems too far gone. In this country, in this place I live, I see two sides getting fueled up and fired up, but I don’t see enough coming together.

It’s that coming together that’s exactly what we need. Most people are too busy trying to prove who is write and who is wrong, and who they like and who they hate. Instead, I wonder if the world might be a better place if we focused on humanity, humankind, decency, morals, respect. I wonder if that would change things. I wonder if the world would be a better place.

It seems that we can never stop this division, because everyone only cares about arguing and fighting anymore. That’s just not the kind of person I will ever be. What I know is to live your life with love and compassion, and kindness. That at the end of the day, labels don‘t matter, people do. The more we name call, argue, and hurt others, the more we are fueling hateful behaviors. What lengths I’ve seen people go to lately just to justify their hate, their rage, their anger at what, I don‘t know. I think people are past the point of direction, and it saddens me to see.

I think when I was a little girl, that the world would be much better than it is by this time, but the simple fact is, the opposite is true. A deeper hole is being dug, and I’m not sure where the story ends, or how to save us, or what exactly will be the fix for everything, except love. I know love is the answer to a lot of things. I know that one act of kindness can change someone’s entire life. Who wouldn’t want to live by this way? This way of kindness, acceptance and love for all people?

It seems a bit like I’m living in some kind of alternate reality somedays. I hope we can turn that around, with love in hearts, kindness with our words, and energy with our strength. To me, that is the best way that we can live our lives and leave something behin for those that come after us. A warning to the future. A reminder to stay loving and caring, but also stay vigilant. To be respecful and nice, but also be critical when necessary. I hope more people begin to understand this in the future.

I hope things begin to change. I hope society learns to do better, to be better. I hope we come to learn and understand that we are all part of the same team; team humanity. Team humanity is the side that wants to live, to make a different in the world, even to go to Mars if we can. We should be friends, not enemies. Humanity should be helping each other thrive in this world every step of the way. Whatever your thoughts may be on anything that has happened in the last few months in this country, I know you can agree that violence is always wrong. In times like these, I look to the greats for inspiration. John Lennon comes to mind especially today:

”You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you’ll join us, and the world will live as one.”