Paradise

And here I was, just sitting by the sea. Listening to the ocean, the rustling of the trees. Absolute freedom, feeling nothing but peace. After all the hurt, all the suffering, all the times I never thought I’d get to live, I’m finally here. I took my life back, took back my freedom. The sky’s so blue, the water cool but warm at the same time. Healing me, washing away all the turmoil. The big gum trees providing so much more than just shade, giving life and telling their stories through the rustling of their big leaves. I never thought I’d get here, never thought it was possible. I still always held onto a positive outlook. I always strived for better but so many hurdles presented themselves, so many roadblocks but I pushed through. I was optimistic of the future, my future. To help, to teach, to serve. After all the heartache and abuse, I wanted nothing more then to do better and be better then them. The evil, the nasty, the corrupted. I wanted paradise, I deserved paradise. So I fought. I fought for life, for my future, for their future, the children, the innocent. Losing my home, my belongings, living in a cardboard box, or on a bench or in a car was nothing compared to what I’d already been through. It was a stepping stone to my bliss. It was what it was. A test, a war, a lesson to be learnt, so others would learn, so others would listen and didn’t follow the steps of the sick and deranged. Everyday I’m working for better. Everyday I’m striving for peace and for love. To instill humanity, empathy honour in those that are lost. To help the forgotten, the unloved. I was lost, I was forgotten and there was no one, no one came running when they heard the cries, no one spoke up against their lies. Sitting in their little bubbles, their corrupted lives. So I knew I had to fight. I had to do what was right. To take away the darkness and turn it into light. And slowly but surely they listened and they learned. They wanted better. They wanted to be good. So I guess my sufferings weren’t all for nothing, as I’m helping, I’m teaching, I’m serving, I’m loving and now they follow. They see what’s right, what’s good. They’ll help the forgotten, they’ll do what they should. I never heard any sorries or got any revenge, I never took any violence into my own hands. I just moved forward, moved on, always aiming for that bliss, my paradise. Knowing I was strong enough to persevere, to fight through it. Knowing I had to or it would just get worse. I had to push through, so I could show them, so they knew. And now here I am, sitting by the sea. Taking it all in, able to be free. Travelling and seeing the world, so many beautiful places to see. Finally able to be me. Meeting the most humblest of souls, the most kindest of people, living by the sea, in amongst the trees. I can now say I love my life, I am now free. No more shackles, no longer on my knees. Just sitting by the sea, under the trees. Reading and singing, watching the waves crash, so rough yet so gentle. I love my life finally, filled with love and friends and new happy memories. But I had to fight, I had to fight for me, for them, for us so we can all be free. Free to live by the sea. I finally have my paradise, my forever bliss. My past I will never miss