Love story

It was just another of our usual gatherings. That day we decided to play hide n seek. And it was ___ den. The moment ___ went to count, he held my hand and took me somewhere to hide. I didn't know what that place was but yes it was magical. We were hiding there and as usual having our talks. He the one talking talking and talking and I like always just lost in him. Suddenly I heard someones footsteps, I thought its ___. And in an instant I put my hand on his mouth to shut him so that we don't get caught. But He KISSED it. I don't know what happened to me but In an instant I withdrew my hand and came out whereas in that moment I wanted something else. I wanted just to be with him. But I came out running and surrendered myself in the game. After that moment, I became quite and started ignoring him. I was lost. I didn't know what to do, how to react to what just happened! So what I did was to act NORMAL like nothing happened. Then the clock struck 6 and it was time to return to our homes. As I was just stepping out, I heard him say I will drop Nimisha! My heart skipped a beat. I said No I can go on my own, you don't have to. He just didn't care and said its too late I will drop you atleast till the metro station! I agreed thinking the way is not too long I can manage by not talking to him. But who knew what is going to happen. And then he suddenly said we will go on foot. I also wanted to and also didn't want to but I reluctantly said OK. In The first few steps we both didn't speak a word and had an ackward silence between us. Then he finally said I AM SORRY!

M: For what?

H: For what I did! I wasn't supposed to do that. But I just thought it was funny.

M: Ha-ha! It was funny for you Mr. But not for me.

H: Look I am really sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you.

M: You don't know what you have done and you are saying sorry.

With that I started moving faster..

He came running behind me.

H: Then tell me whats my mistake. With this you will also feel better.

M: You will not understand.

H: Atleast try once.

M: It is not easy for me.

H: What is not easy? Stop complicating things and say it directly.

M: It is not easy for me being just a friend to you when you mean so much more to me!

H: I didn't understand.

M: I know you will Never understand!

Again started walking faster.

He came running! Stopped me,Held my hand tightly and shouted at me.

H: Then make me understand, God dammit.

I looked directly into his eyes now and a tear rolled down my cheek and I continued speaking..

M: You don't know how hard it is for me to act all normal like there is nothing where I want to shout and tell the whole damn world How much I love you! How much you mean to me! How much I want to spend my whole fuckin life with you! You will never realise.. And I started crying!

He stood there blank, not knowing what to say, how to make me stop crying!

Finally I gathered the courage, wiped my tears and finally said..

M: I knew this was going to happen. Thats why I never told you because I didn't want to spoil our friendship. At least as friends we talked and shared everything and Now, all we gonna have is awkward silence and it is all because of me. Please forgive me and try to forget all that I said to you and if you cannot then also its okay. Cause either now or later, I had to learn to live without you.

With this I started to walk away..

But then he held my hand and pulled me back and KISSED me hard.. That moment I so wanted to kiss him harder but my mind said, No Nimisha it is not right and my lips stopped. I pulled myself back and just said Sorry! And walked away..

He shouted..

H: Just one last time. Let me be with you!

M: No! It is not right, I cannot. I am sorry!

H: Okay at least let me hug you.

With this I couldn't stop myself anymore. I came running towards him and hugged him as tightly as I could because I knew maybe this was the last time I could be with him. He hugged me back. I was in his arms. I wanted the time to stop and just spend my whole life like this.. But life is never how we want!

My phone ranged..

It was my mother. And soon I realised I am already late and I have to reach home.

I freed myself from him and walked towards the stations gate. Not looking back. Because I knew if I looked him back I wouldn't be able to leave him. I made myself strong and just walked up the stairs..