Love is simply complicated.

Love is always blamed for the complexities of a two person relationship. Is love real if we can't see eye to eye? Do i love this person enough? I love them but I don't like who they have become. There are all shorts of perceptions from our own thoughts that define love.

I don't believe we are to blame love in general. Love is profound form of electric emotion, feeling and action that is instilled in our beliefs from the moment we are born. I love you is the first thing we hear from our father, mother, brother, sister, aunt, uncle, grandparents mouth. Its an overwhelming feeling, but why is this feeling so complex.

I think its because we try to define it in our own minds but do we really ever get it right? Its always changing our beliefs to be true of love. That's why its so complex. We change along with it. We grow in and out of love. I use to think love was simple. Love was the unity I shared with my family. Yet, as we have grown a apart it doesn't seem to stick us together anymore.

Yes, there is love there but when the absence of belief of it is now negative that's what it forms into. When one person isnt feeling their own perception of it given at that time in their lives they tend to feel the opposite of love. Once one person in the family who is cared about goes down we tend to lose that bond of love that held us together. When you don't feel love for so long you tend to become numb to it.

Your so use to feeling the opposite your afraid to feel love again cause its so painful when you lose it. But with all things it is always possible to connect back to love. The only source that can connect us back is God. For he gave his one and only son to us so that we can see it. It says he gave us his son so that we can be forgiven of our sins.

I use to think sin was holding me against god. It’s not, it holding me accountable for my wrongdoings. It’s a redirection to your heart. If we accept that god is love. We can come back from the loss we gain in our hearts. That has been my journey. The need to see it, to see love is there. It was so clouded with darkness and negativity I didn’t see it. I didn’t see what was right in front of me. Gods sovereign love. He redirected me when I was committing a sin, a sin that allowed me not see love for what it is. Love is patient, kind, and unconditional with god.

My journey through darkness in my mind was hard because I made it hard for a long time. Now, I see that god can only pave my light by showing darkness so that I can see my light, or love that I have in my heart again.

How does one believe god is love? It’s a journey. There are so many Christians that believe that if your pray and ask for it it will be how shown to you. It is true for some and perhaps it is true for a lot of people. However, for others like myself it has been a journey and will always be a journey since that is how I’m hardwired. I will get glimpses of darkness because I’m not perfect. But, as long as I seek the real love that god has for me I will always come back to the light.